I was very devasted when everything I have fell apart back then. I used to think that nothing hurts more than what I went through in the past.It was nightmare. But knowing that someone laid his life on the line just to save me from a bigger and more miserable nightmare is a different kind of pain. He didn't have to do it. Hindi niya kailangang makialam. I refuse to accept how his love for me lead him to do stupid things.His father is a leader of a syndicate. It was given that he is dangerous. But he played his father's dirty game and betrayed him just so he can save me. Ganoon niya ba ako kamahal...para isugal ang buhay niya maprotektahan lamang ako? I couldn't accept it. It was too painful. Paano kung hindi siya nakaligtas sa pagkaka-coma? Paniguradong habang-buhay akong lulubog sa pagsisisi at sakit!Tulala ako habang nakaupo sa gutter sa labas ng restaurant. Nasa loob pa ng restaurant ang tatlo at ako lamang ang lumabas para magpahangin. At sa totoo lang, wala akong mukhang mai

Naalimpungatan ako sa pagtama ng nakakasilaw na liwanag mula sa bintana. I opened my eyes slowly. Mula sa puting kurtinang hinihipan ng hangin ay inilipat ko ang paningin sa aking tabi.No one was there. Siguro'y nasa labas na ang mag-ama ko. Ngumuso ako at dahan-dahang bumangon. Forth slept here with us last night. It was a long day for us kaya't agad kaming nakatulog. Ngunit himalang nauna pa siyang magising sa akin.Inayos ko ang sarili saka bumaba. Naabutan ko si Carson na nakatungtong sa monoblock chair habang abala sa pagbabati ng itlog. While Forth is topless while cooking something.Saglit akong napatulala. His hair is messy but he still look hot as hell. His thin stubble made him look rough and more intimidating. Ang mga labi'y pula at medyo nakaawang habang nakikinig sa sinasabi ng anak. He laughed a bit at what our son said, revealing his set of perfect whites.Even with the way he laughs, hindi ka mapapanatag. Akala mo'y isang guwapong diablong natutuwa sa kung ano. His sm