Orson   I was determined not to leave things this way because in all fairness Iris didn't understand the real reason behind me not getting intimate with her, it wasn't because I didn't want her, it had nothing to do with that. But after what happened with Addi I just fucking feel so wired and afraid to lose them both that, the thought of messing things up again like I did that night with Addi in the forest instantly has my wolf recoiling. It's like even he knows that we fucked up to the extent that now we might completely lose Addi, to hell with the triquetra bullshit triangle bond between us, this went way beyond that for me. I had two mates, not just one. And as things stand right now I'm this close to losing both, the thought of that fucking petrifies me. So as much as I think that I can just let her go, allow her to calm down I can't. I find myself barreling from my car towards the packhouse door. My nose instantly picks up her scent

OrsonI'm sitting behind my desk and I can't concentrate on anything besides the fact that I actually allowed Iris to leave on that stupid pack representation thing that I organized because I wanted distance between Thomas and Addi, and now because of that Iris was on her way to the Greenfields pack with everyone else.Yes, the moment she told me that it would probably be a good thing to carry on every year going forward and it probably would, but I didn't want her going there, I want both of my mates with me right now.It hasn't even been two hours yet and already I feel like I'm going to lose it, the whole morning is dragging its heels and the paperwork on my desk still demands my attention even though it isn't exactly getting any less.Suddenly I hear a knock at my door and it doesn't even take me a second to know that it's Davies, "Hey alpha, what's up with you, you look like you're wolf wants to claw to the surface."Looking up from the paperwork in front of me I sigh as I run m