I got home and continued thinking of everything that happened. I wondered if Emily was really thinking of going to stay with James. It didn't make sense to me, she couldn't leave me, leave her mom, Dad, us. We had something going on and she just woke and decided to make such a decision. A surge of regret flushed through me, I wished I didn't have to say all that to Emily. I was regretting my choice of words and how my words hurt her. I was shitty to say those things to her. I was mad and thought it was the best thing to do. Yes, I wanted to hurt her but now I regret it. She didn't deserve to be called a mistake or whatever said, I could only wish to clear them from her head. It killed me to know she sought comfort in Devin's arms and that made me mad. It hurt me that I wasn't the one who gave her solace. I'm fucking toxic but that isn't the point. I just want Emily to myself and would do anything to have her. I reached for the unlit cigarette in my jacket. I
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