The weight of Matteo’s absence weighed on us all. I feel like someone has set a sack of bricks on my chest. This is a moment I’ve been fearing since the start of talk war even began. I hope Matteo is safe and that this is just an attack and not the beginning of war. Still, if it’s not the beginning, war is still coming. The rogues aren’t backing down that much is becoming very clear.  Jasper and I sit in his office with Amara while she blissfully colors in her coloring books with her headphones on playing her kiddie pop music. Jasper and I have been trying to stay strong for Amara and not fully break down. Matteo’s parents will be at the pack house by the end of the day. They will stay here while Matteo is gone to help out wherever we need them. I know I will need them to help with Lana while I make a public appearance tomorrow with Jasper. We have to reassure the pack and hopefully by then we will h

After I change I head to the training grounds. I need to burn off some of my anxious energy. My life is giant fucking stress ball right now and I need to pound my fists into something, or I need transform and rip my claws and teeth into someone.  My father is good at getting under my skin. Just looking at him is normally enough to piss me off. I’m glad that Felix is doing the right thing by Amara, but I don’t fully trust his good intentions. I’m going to keep an eye on him, especially why he is here. I don’t need any distractions right now, so I hope my father doesn’t plan on being a total distraction and actually helps while Matteo is gone.  I hate when Matteo leaves. I hate being acting Alpha. I’m content to be second in command. I’ve never liked the idea of being Alpha when the topic comes up if Matteo doesn't have a male heir. I know Lana could

Panic. Pure panic that I have only found my mate to lose her. I always knew she might be a rogue, but how did she end up one. Not every rogue is bad and not every rogue is rightfully made a rogue. There are packs who banish pregnant she-wolves and so their pups end up rogues too. Some get taken by rogues and are forced to renounce their pack or die. Rogues are vicious. Pacing outside of the room that my mate is set up in as the pack doctor and nurse work on her. Amara is with me her face twisted in worry as she chews on her thumbnail. Amara glances at me and offers a half smile. I’ve already texted Matteo and told him to contact Amara if he wants up dates because I’m a freaking mess. I have been searching for my mate, hoping for her. Maybe I am cursed. Is my whole damn family cursed because of my father because if there is anyone who put

Matteo comes home today and I’m so damn excited! I’ve missed him. I never realized how much his presence in my life means to me. I’m falling fast and hard for my mate, oh who am I kidding, I’m already in love.  I also want Matteo home to deal with Felix and Jasper. Gene is struggling to keep them from killing one another and I’m trying to be the voice of reason. We can’t seem to stop the two of them from trying to rip each other a part. I’m not talking just physically, I’m talking about words as weapons.  I officially know why I have a mean way with words and why I have made people cry in the past. I’m not proud of it when I have done it, but at least I know where I get that particular flaw. It’s from Felix’s side.  Jasper and Felix have been vicious with one another. It’s hard to watch. I thought

Sorry about the mess up on chapter 38. mom brain got the better of me, long week with my dragons(my twin girls), and they have worn me out.  I have contacted my editor to delete the repeated chapter. Thank you all for reading and for your support with gems, you guys are awesome! I appreciate your support!    Don't forget to check out my social media pages for all the latest updates on my books, new releases, signed copies, where you can find all my books, and so much more!  Hope you guys are loving the story. Please feel free to leave comments and suggestions.    Love-Birdy Rivers