Waking, I roll over to find myself faced with the walls of muscles that is my alpha, my mate, my Matteo. Moon goddess above I don’t know what I would have done without Matteo last night as my world crashed around me. My heart still aches at the news. I thought my heart ached when Matteo wrongfully imprisoned me. I thought my heart could know no worse pain than when he tried to force me to take those morning after pills. It was all nothing compared to last night.. Everything about last night has topped many horrible, painful, and embarrassing moments. Rolling out of bed I head to the bathroom. I need a hot shower to try and prepare for our family trip. As much as I’m not in the mood to go on our camping trip now, I won’t ruin this for Lana. This trip is important for several reasons. Perhaps, I need our camping trip more than I know. I need to be with my real family, the family that I have found thanks to my mate. Last night I felt cursed, but maybe I’m not. Maybe I’m secret

The ride to the campground is going smooth so far. Lana is happily singing songs and chatting about everything she wants to do. Matteo is focused on driving and singing along with Lana. Matteo actually has a decent voice which is shocking to see on the tough alpha. Jasper and I both have good singing voices, something we share in common, with other things.  It’s strange for me to have a sibling I can relate to, hang out with, and talk to. While it’s strange because I definitely never had this with my sisters, it’s also refreshing. I won’t lie I was nervous to tell Jasper the truth, afraid he would reject me like my family did. Their rejection stings like a thousand bees, actually I think the bees would be nicer. At least bees make honey, my family definitely doesn't make honey.  I’m unsure if Felix will be so accepting of me as Jasper is. I’m thankf

During lunch Jasper fills Matteo in on how the conversation went with Felix. I wasn’t expecting Jasper to contact him now. I thought he would do it when he got back, but he wants the meeting to happen when we get back right away. Jasper doesn’t seem like he has the best relationship with our father, so I’m not holding out hope that Felix will accept me. Honestly, I”m not expecting him to. I simply want to meet just to have an idea of who my real father is. My life I have looked up to my mothers mate as my father assuming he was mine. I never thought it was fair that he was taken from me before I could know him, but the truth was he wasn’t mine to even have. Still, I feel connected to him though. He cared and loved me like his own, and part of me thinks he wouldn’t have cared if I was his. For all we know, he knew my mother had an affair, he might have assumed I was

We are making s’mores by the roaring fire. Matteo and I are curled up together. He is leaning against a log. I’m between his legs. Jasper is helping Lana make everyone s’mores since she insisted she has to make all of us one. It’s cute that she wants to make us s’mores.  Lana is turning out to love cooking and baking. She wants to do it as often as possible. She’s also taking an interest in art. I’m happy she is finding ways to help her cope with her emotions while also forming lifelong passions. It’s a beautiful thing to watch a young soul blossom. It’s why I wanted to be a nanny, a mother, and a teacher. My heart is for the pups of this pack and I love that as Luna I can help them thrive.  Jasper helps Lana put the marshmallows on the graham crackers and chocolate. Lana giggles as Jasper makes funny sounds. He’s so good with her. Jasper is going t

Well, the weekend itself was great. It went as well as I hoped it would. Amara had definitely perked up from the earth shattering news she received. Lana was thrilled to be officially adopted. Jasper and I had time to ourselves and so did Amara and I. My mind jump to fucking Amara in the woods, damn that was hot. However, the fun memory is short lived because the reports I’m getting are concerning. The rogue alpha has never attacked two packs at once. He’s growing bolder. The frustrating thing is no one seems to know who this self proclaimed rogue alpha is. He just started showing up a few weeks ago, but no one took him seriously. There have been dozens of fools who try to band together the rogues to attack packs. Some have dubbed themself Alpha in the past, but it never lasted long. This one, he’s not backing down. He’s bold