When Dereck mentions the potential to kill Cedric, I feel a sharp pain in my heart. For whatever reason, I don’t think I can ever bring myself to kill that fool of an alpha. I know I may not get the choice if it comes down to a fight, but that doesn’t mean I would kill him in cold blood. I just don’t understand why I feel this way. That man has been nothing but a pain in my side since we met. First, he kidnapped me and my pack, then he de-ranked me and now he sexually hounds me whenever he is in the mood. With a glance at my feet, I realise he also does so when I get in the mood. Is that because of how I smell to him? What if Dereck can smell me too? Peering up at him, Dereck doesn’t seem phased by me at all. Though is that because my body isn’t feeling rowdy right now? I can’t tell if that’s the case or if it is something else entirely. For now, I push those thoughts aside. As long as no other men are around me when I smell ‘good’, then I’ll be safe. Or as safe as this place can be

I do not know what got into Cedric the last few days, but he has not left me alone. Even when one of his scouts summoned him outside of the packhouse, he sent someone else just so he didn’t leave me alone. He said it wasn’t an urgent matter, and one of his gammas could handle the issue just as effectively as he could have. Did Joey really trouble him that much? It’s not like anything happened, and Joey hasn’t tried to do anything to me since then either. In fact, Joey hasn’t even snooped around for the ‘scent’ so I’m not sure what Cedric is so paranoid for. Even when he has had no other option but to leave the main packhouse and gardens, he has forced me to either stay in the packhouse or have guards following my every movement. I thought I was gaining more freedom, but now I have less again. At least these guards all have mates and are safer to be around than those like Joey. The downside is this has meant me and Dereck haven’t been able to meet up, not even in secret. Anytime I g

Cedric was already gone by the time I had woken up, but that had only given me a small window to breathe. As soon as I came down the stairs, one of his omegas was already waiting for me. I don’t know who this one is, but she seems to be annoyed with her task of babysitting me. None of the omegas seems to like being around me all that much, although I can't think of why.Or maybe I can. I have been unreasonable towards them since day one. Perhaps even a little rude and unbearing, but that’s only because I never wanted to be dragged into this place and held hostage. Surely they can understand that?I offer her a small nod of greeting and glance around before asking, “where’s Cedric?”“The alpha,” the omega corrects me as she huffs. “And he’s dealing with a matter right now… he’ll be back,” she tells me, shaking her head. “Just go eat, or whatever…” she then mumbles, watching my every move.I give her the side-eye before slowly making my way to the kitchen. She follows me, but I can tell

Oh. Fuck. I can’t believe I just did that! Of all the things to do, I accidentally said Cedric’s name instead of Dereck’s. He has stopped kissing me and is now staring at me in disbelief. I have to think of something quick! “W-what? W-why did you stop?” I ask, trying my best to pretend I didn’t just mix up the names at all. I mean Cedric and Dereck sound alike, right? He won’t misunderstand, right? “You just called me-” “Dereck!” I call out his name, perhaps a little too loudly. He blinks at me with a perplexed expression. “I think I hear someone coming!” I lied. There’s no way he is going to believe me, not when he looks at me like this. I push Dereck off of me and quickly make my way to the door. My face is so hot that I know my fluster will be easy for anyone to notice. I need to get away from Dereck before he starts asking me questions. There is no way on the dark side of the moon that I can talk about the things Cedric does to me! Especia

At first, I was surprised that Dereck had figured out the truth so quickly, but in a way, I’m glad. There are a few ways I can use his love for Kai to my advantage, but this might mean I’ll have to accept a few things myself. For now, I don’t have time to worry about it.A new cake is brought to the packhouse. Though it isn’t the one I had wanted, the argument had gone on long enough and had been bad enough that the two idiots had caused a mess of the original. Next year I’ll get someone else to work on it.Thankfully, nothing else major has caused any setbacks to the preparations and our guests arrive with only a few minutes delay. Kai has been strangely quiet and hasn’t come downstairs at all yet. I haven’t had time to check on him, as alpha Caleb has kept me busy with his chit-chat.He was my father’s friend when they were children, but moved his pack away from the fighting. Although they only visit once a year,