By Ruthlessness I Rule 의 모든 챕터: 챕터 21 - 챕터 30

Cressida It was lunch time now and Savaş kept disappearing and coming back with food trays here and there until he finally settled in front of me on the table, both of us were eating in silence until… I decided to ask a question."What was that place we were in? A private beach?" I knew that he didn't exactly have to answer this question but I still hoped as I went back to eating. "An Island that belonged to my mother, no one would suspect it." His mother. I never asked him about her, the only thing I knew was that my mother and his passed out around the same time which I wouldn't consider as coincidence anymore."Tell me about your mother." I paused when he froze and tensed for a second so I quickly tried to make the situation right."If you want to tell me about her of course, you don't have to just because I asked you to–" I was rambling anything that came to my mind by now but cut myself off and looked down at my plate as I started eating again, hoping that he would forget that

Cressida Two fucking weeks.He left me without any kind of sexual satisfaction for two weeks.Savaş kept on saying that I had to be one hundred percent sure that I wanted to do it and no matter how many times I said he just kept on stalling but looking at the positive side, we spent more normal time together, we got to know each other a lot.While I was still in contact with Talia and Jack, it was the three horsemen who I became closer with as they visited us on the yacht from time to time just like they were here now.Which was the only reason why my mind was taken off my attempts on making Savaş have sex with me but he was making it so hard for me with the white shirt he was wearing, the way it showed his muscles was just… beautiful and I was lucky that he was talking with Ace and Oliver right now otherwise he would've caught me staring. "Oh don't tell me you two didn't fuck yet." My eyes widened as I looked behind me to find Jesper giving me one of his grins and I was sure that m

Cressida I couldn't feel anything anymore. Nothing mattered anymore, numbness was my ally now, helping me cope with the demons inside my head.My feet were moving me on their own accord inside our mansion but it felt… empty.No it didn't feel, it was empty, life no longer existed in it and no sound was there, just the sound of our footsteps through the empty entrance, darkness surrounding it.Aunt Natalie was about to turn on the lights when I raised my hand in the air, telling her to stop which she did after looking at my father.I started going upstairs, not waiting for anyone to follow me and I knew I was supposed to go inside my room but my feet carried me somewhere else, somewhere that would bring me pain but my heart didn't seem to care.His room was dark but I knew my way very well. I walked inside it before I collapsed down on the bed as I let myself take in his smell, his scent being everywhere around me as if he was trying to wrap me in a comforting hug.But I couldn't let

Savaş"What the fuck does that mean? How come none of you talked to her?" I gritted out, my mind not wanting to believe that she was blocking herself out and away from everyone. Jesper and Talia included. "She's shutting herself out, alright? She had a breakdown at the funeral then just like that, she was back to square one." Talia explained, and we all saw how she was holding back her tears for Ida which made Ember go to her side and pull her in a hug and even though no one understood how these two became friends again, they just did somehow.But my mind was stuck on Ida, because that son of a bitch Dante didn't let me go to the funeral, I wasn't able to be there for her and even if I was… she wouldn't have acknowledged me which is a bad sign, a very bad one.I knew Ida, she would've tried having my head on a silver platter for her if she believed I had something to do with her brother's death but that made my case worse because I wanted her to come here, to hit me and scream at me.

Cressida "Why should I wear a wig?" I asked, frustration filling my voice because the damn wig just couldn't be placed on my head like I wanted."One, we can't let The Raven's Caw know that you know about them. Two, since your majesty doesn't want to run into Savaş then we have to disguise you." Talia answered while applying on her eyeliner.I didn't know who to ask about the whole Raven's Caw thingy but apparently she knew because her father was in the meeting too but I didn't notice him so she told me some stuff but not everything so we still have to go some sort of underground club that the Raven's Caw own, where fights happen so that we can spy around.But the problem was that the horsemen hung around there a lot and might as well be there tonight so I told her that the last thing I want is running into Savaş there and that is why I'm suffering with a blonde wig now.Once I finally had the wig on, we headed to the club where a bouncer was seated but he got up when he saw Talia be