The fact that the kiss affected me so much, made me want to submerge myself in the deep sea. I hate the mixed feelings that come from what that bastard did. I really hate him. And, that was two weeks ago, which means I'm totally screwed. After leaving Rhysand on the balcony, I went straight into the party. Not for fun, but to find Jordan. After I found him talking to one of his business colleagues, I immediately told him I wanted to go home. It's up to him to take me or not. But he drove me, and he still thought that the reason I wanted to hurry home was because I had a headache—a lie that Bellva told everyone. That night, I couldn't sleep because of the mixed feelings that plagued me. With just a kiss and a touch from him, he messed me up. I don't like this. I don't like how Rhysand made me feel. I don't like the cozy warmth in my chest when I think about it. This is really wrong. And until now, sometimes I can still feel something twist my stomach and make my heart beat fast.

I looked around the large library on the fifteenth floor of the office.Two years I worked here, I never visited the library because of course work is more important. Besides being used as a display, this library is usually used for programmers who want to work in peace. If Big Man's secretary hadn't taken Rhysand and me to the library, I might have been the only employee who had never visited this room. I love reading. Reading novels. The first novel I read was by Louisa May Alcott; Little Woman, and then moved on to other feminist novels such as Handmaid's Tale and Pride and Prejudice—the book I'm holding right now. Well, I shouldn't be going around the library looking for a novel I like because what I'm supposed to be doing is taking care of a crazy bastard named Rhysand del Millero, who's on the phone. But I don't want to do that. I'd rather buy time with the books in front of me until the helicopter he's waiting for comes over to the bullshit he started. Damn, I hate this situ

"Go, damn it!"I flinched at the snap from Rhysand. Rhysand was standing at the end of the sofa, his face red and an annoyed, his chest heaving. His white shirt was wrinkled, and I grimaced because maybe it was my fingers that were causing the wrinkles, the front of his trousers looking tight with desire.I knew that the yell was aimed at the secretary, but I also stood up while tidying my clothes after the secretary left. I cringe at guessing what I'll look like."Let me." Rhsyand approached me and unbuttoned my pants.I hit his hand, "Stop it. Don't come near me again.""Shut up, Amanda." He said grimly, tugging at the hem of my blouse and smoothing it so that the buttons were straight back between my chest. Then he pulls down my pants, smoothing them out with his calm, skillful hands. "Tidy your hair tie."I pulled away when he was about to pull my pants again, I did it myself. Realizing my refusal, he took his suit that was on the other sofa, and put it on.I started to walk fast

"You really look unwell, Amanda." Gabriella said as she put down a bowl of Kartoffelsuppe. The popular soup comes from Germany. This soup has potatoes as the main ingredient, and is then topped with onions, celery butter, and milk. I took a sip of the gravy, and then nodded at Gabriella because it was so delicious. "I'm exhausted." I answered. "You worked really hard." Gabriella sat next to me, and took a sip of her mineral water. "Of course. I'll disappoint my boss if I don't work hard." I retorted while taking a large mouthful of it. Gabriella frowned, her expression as if trying to remember who my boss was. Enlightenment came to her face a few seconds later, she nodded her head. "Ah, the man with the same name as me." She chuckled to himself. "I'm sure he also told you not to work that hard. He seems like a nice guy." "He is." "But you always sacrifice yourself to please others, don't you?" The satire made me snort loudly. I chose to ignore it and put the soup back in my mout

I immediately pushed Rhysand's body until he released his grip, and then ran towards Bellva who was frozen in the doorway. Her face hard with anger, Bellva glared at him. "Do you realize what you've done?" Bellva had already stepped forward towards Rhysand and stopped in front of Rhysand who was still staring at me intently and his chest heaving. "You have no right to stop what I do." Rhysand replied sharply. A tone I've never heard. "Bellva, stop it." I told her. I was afraid that our long absence would catch Jordan's attention, and then things would end badly. "Jordan would come if we were still here. He'd be suspicious." "Go away from here!" Said Bellva before she turned away from Rhysand and then stepped towards me. Bellva grabbed my hand and then led me out of the bathroom at a quick pace.I don't know where she's taking me, but she won't take me to her private room. She instead took me to one of the rooms here, and then checked my whole body. "Are you okay? He didn't do any