Lahat ng Kabanata ng The Alpha That Couldn't Remember: Kabanata 21 - Kabanata 30

Kai’s pov I could have just sent someone else inside her tent. I should have. But she is the fucking leader, whether I like it or not. So after I spotted a lot of rogues near the border, I went inside her tent to alert Mona. I thought she would wake up right away, but she kept sleeping. She was sleeping naked, in the middle of the floor. I had overheard her talking to that witch. She had probably gone to sleep in wolf form and shifted back in her sleep. “Overheard? You were listening on purpose. You even moved closer so you could hear the entire conversation.” Ronin growled. The conversation confused me. It wasn’t uncommon for packs to use witches, mostly for healing or protection spells. But this witch was helping Mona remember. Was she really that good of a liar that she could fool a witch? Or did Mona pay off the witch to pretend to go along with her story, so anyone listening would think Mona was telling the truth. “Because Alpha Moon has nothing better to do than try and tric

Kai’s pov “So will you finally tell me about Mona?” Clara asked me a week after I returned from the Wolvin pack. I hadn’t paid much attention to Clara. To anyone really. I focused on my training and I hunted at night, to avoid Clara. I knew she still wanted to know about Mona, but I needed time. I was still angry at myself for actually believing Mona for a second. Actually thinking she was trying to protect me and then she came up with this elaborate lie. Why would someone use a young girl to kill Kimiko and Mona’s mom? Why use Mona to seduce men and then blackmail them? There must be better people out there to use than Mona. And what the fuck was their plan anyway, because it didn’t make any sense. Probably because the whole fucking thing was a lie. “Yet, you’re thinking about it.” Ronin growled. “And you didn’t kill her. Again.” “Don’t remind me of my weakness.” I growled back. “Raider? Are you ignoring me now?” Clara asked disappointed. I still hadn't answered her question, I

Moon’s pov I didn’t have time to think about what I saw during the ritual. What I remembered. If I would, I would break. I could already feel some cracks in my foundation. I needed to focus on something else, because I’d be no fucking use to my pack if I broke down now. I didn't need to mindlink the people at our new location. I knew if we were attacked it would have to be here. Our pack was vulnerable. We didn’t have enough people there and there was no magical border while the witches were working on me. It had to be our old packground that was attacked. When I got the confirmation that it was indeed our pack, I wondered who’s link I felt break. There wasn’t just one, there were several people dead. What the hell had happened?! “Don’t blame yourself.” Angela tried to say, but she knew it was already too late. This was my fault. I was their Alpha and I put my own needs first. Racheal and I shifted and the witches followed behind us. I had asked Tabitha if she would ride on my ba

Moon’s pov Tabitha and I left the packground before Mary woke up. I held myself together until we reached the caves. I broke down crying and I didn’t stop until I was too tired and weak. I fell asleep, my face felt swollen from all the tears. The next day I woke up, hoping everything was a bad dream. Hoping that the man I thought was my dad, hadn’t used me to do unimaginable things. That he hadn't used me as an assassin, a whore, a liar, a spy? I hoped I’d feel better when I got confirmation that it wasn’t my fault. That I’d feel like maybe I was a good person after all. It wasn’t my choice to do all these bad things. But all I felt was dirty and weak. If I had been stronger? Maybe then I could have stopped myself from killing my mom, killing Kimiko. “You are the strongest person I know,” Angela tried to reassure me, but there was no point. I once again had cost the lives of others. This time I hadn’t killed them myself, but I had been responsible. Lukas, Elisha and the others had

Moon's pov I watched Beta Norman day and night, barely getting any sleep. I didn’t understand why he wasn’t visiting the caves. He only ever went to the dig site, which wasn’t anywhere near the caves. After five days I was tired, hungry and sick of hiding and climbing up into trees smelling worse than shit. Couldn’t Tabitha have made a better smelling potion?! The more I was by myself the more I remembered and the worse I felt. There were some good memories too, a lot of them. But it made me feel like crap everything even more. I could have had a good life with Kai, if all this hadn’t happened. I was focused on my revenge, but it went too fucking slow. I needed Beta Norman by himself, so I could attack him and stop whatever else he was planning. I tried to keep my eye on Beta Norman, but it was Kai that drew my attention. He walked out of the campsite and went into the opposite direction of the dig site. He kept walking and I followed him. It was obvious he was trying to reach me.