Lahat ng Kabanata ng Loved by the Mafia: Kabanata 21 - Kabanata 27

The walk to the river is a ticking bomb for me. I now get to see him clearly from head to toe. This man is delicious. Then my grown-ass woman's mind takes over and my first action is to rebel against everything he says. When he walks to the left, I walk to the right, and he must use several minutes to plead with me to listen. I walk down the cliff to test his willingness to let me go unharmed. I want to see how much he cares. When he asks me why I must climb down the cliff, my short answer is it’s the shortest path to Zia and James. When I look at the bottom of the cliff. It’s scary. And I am dizzy. My body is running out of energy. One drop and I am dead. Keirah you are being childish. My grown-ass mind speaks to me.“Are you going to keep around the end of the cliff? That is the end, Keirah. If you are trying to go down one wrong step, you will die. “You look like you are already low in energy. Let's just walk that way and join Zia and James at the river on the other side,” Luc

The thought of me wanting to save him and not kill me. Makes fear travel to my spine. I still let him hold on to me tight, helping him keep his head above water as I swim towards the riverbank. I did not believe him when he said he did not know how to swim. I help him out of the water and plead for him to forgive me. “I am so sorry. I should have listened when you told me you could not swim.” “Is that even a sincere apology? You almost killed me.” “Yes, I am sorry.”James walks up to us and hands Luciano a towel. Leaving us behind as if he did not want to intervene, Luciano takes the towel and walks away from me. Cursing as he dries his hair in a towel. I feel hurt. He did not need to curse me. I was wrong and did not know he could not swim. He is the one who said I don’t forgive easily. What is he doing to me now, after I sincerely apologized? He is human, Keirah... He is human. I would fume too if I was in his situation. I join Zia and James, who have invested their eyes on u

In the wee hours of the morning. When I try to stand up, my legs feel jelly and I give up on standing. I lie still on the bed rewinding the day and what the hell just happened now? My mind is all back. Whatever happened yesterday was an in-the-moment thing, but the reality of all of it is back. I should not have slept with Luciano with all this going on. My plan to get someone in my pants worked. But it has gone sideways because I am in love again and this time around with this man lying beside me in bed. I have brought another heartbreak and pain to my heart once again. Maybe I should have been honest from the start and we would not have been in the state. I am also blaming myself for having sex without telling Luciano the whole truth that made me come to Casablanca. That I came all the way to get myself pregnant by deceit. And by the way, I have fallen for him. I want to assure him the plan was no longer what I wanted if I had him by my side.I now know what I have wanted all

Luciano is one hell of a narcist. In between all this, he still knows where to get me. He pulls me, then brings his lips to mine. Kissing me tenderly and eagerly that I almost forget everything, but I am reminded it is my body reacting to a lie. It’s all a lie. We found the feelings in lies.“Please stop this…. please…”I push him away from me and continue to sob loudly. It hurts so much. It hurts more to think he could be capable of hurting me like this.“Look at me… Tell me you do not feel this connection I am feeling. Please tell me I am not making this up. I have fallen madly in love with you, Keirah. Talk to me. I want to know Keirah. What does all this mean to you?” “If I tell you. Will that change anything.?” “Talk to me. Make it make sense. I do not understand.” “I do not have any feelings for you. I never did. All I have felt for you is pity.” “Do you accept me to believe that?” “It is fine by me. Whatever you believe sounds okay.” He tries to walk to me, and I halt his