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/Emily/Beginning of JuneNowFirst, second, third, and fourth. I am concentrating to calm down my breathing. In, out, in, out, attempting to make the breaths longer so that they are more tortoise-like and less hare-like, which is how they feel right now because they are racing. My palms are sweating, which causes my hands to become glued to the steering wheel. It feels almost as if I'm working with clay on my pottery wheel.Why am I feeling this way? It's not right of me. This is Noel, and he cherishes our relationship. How many times has he told me that I can tell him anything without fear of judgment? Perhaps there is some kind of link between us, like we are soul mates who happened to stumble across each other in this crazy, messed-up world that we both live in.Even more than that, he enjoys it when I chat to him and reveal to him the inner workings of my mind and heart. Because all he has to look at in his own home is ugliness. Parents who argue with each other, including a fath

"You'll put a hole in your father's heart. He will be aware that his tiny baby has been sleeping around and has become pregnant as a result. That you lied to sleep with a local baseball player in order to have an affair with him. Are you able to do it to him after the loss of your mother? Because you are trying to catch me in your trap, everyone else will despise you. Are you sure you want that? Do you want it to be public knowledge that you're a slut? ”I yank my arm away from him and cover my lips with the shaking palm that was previously protecting it. That is correct. I am certain that he is correct. You may expect everyone to despise you. Have I not suffered enough already?It will come down to my word vs his.Noel... I adore him, but he's never shown any interest in me. How will I tell my dad? How am I going to become a mother?"Don't be an idiot, Emily. I solemnly pledge to the deity that you should employ some common sense and get rid of it. ”I pay no attention to what he has

Happy. It’s been such a foreign word recently. But I do feel…happier. I am not yet at that point. Because of Jason and the way he makes me feel, it doesn't feel right to be happy without my mother, but I'm growing closer to that place all the time. As though I'm normal, despite the fact that it's been a very long time since I was. "I'm trying. " I shrug.Lillian comes up behind me and places her hand on my shoulder. "It's encouraging to see.""Much thanks.""At what time can you expect the boys to arrive?" Ellie asks.As I heard that, my stomach dropped. “What? You guys didn't let me know that they were going to come with us, did you? When Airlene and Marvin are here with us, everything is under control. Even though they are Ellie and Lillian's boyfriends, Darren can nearly always be found wherever the two of them are. My ex-boyfriend doesn't seem to enjoy being in my company as much as he used to. Even if I don't really understand why, I have a strong suspicion that he detests me. Wi

There were always six of us, regardless of the fact that Darren and I had both been absent and present at various points in time. The one and only difference is that by the time we were done with seventh grade, Steve had replaced Darren as the student in the same position. Unfortunately, Mom did not survive. After that, I threw off the balance by talking to Jason, and from that point on, I kept my distance from our very close-knit group of friends and acquaintances.She said that "it is an extremely remarkable coincidence" and I quote: Ellie is no longer begging or pleading with me to change my mind and she has stopped trying to convince me. This has been Ellie's character from the beginning. She will not tolerate crap from anyone and will not put up with it herself. I've always admired her for her strength, and I've often wished that I could be more like her.Yet, what I really want from her right now is for her not to be the kind of person who gives up easily when things become heat

“Okay. ” I can't help but wish that my answer was right as I grab for my brush and run it through my hair, but I know that it's probably wrong. It would be quite embarrassing for me to show my face in front of my classmates at school. fearful of the looks that would be cast her her by the rest of the people. Attending summer parties was not an option for me, so please tell me all about them. Take a look at this team that formerly consisted of six people but now only has five members.I have no doubt that every single person is aware of it. Even though it has been a whole summer since it happened, I can't help but wonder if they are still finding it to be as novel an experience as it is for me."Are you sure?"My eyes always seem to land on his when I glance in the mirror. It's almost like stepping into a time machine when he holds them; for a brief minute, it makes me feel as if nothing has changed at all. If we maintain this level of eye contact and continue to look at each other in