Samantha pov'sJordan was sleeping crookedly in his chair, and I still didn't sleep at all, even though I'd been sedated by the nurse, I slept for two hours and then woke up. Since then I've been here, trying to think of everything that's happening in my life, thinking from the beginning of everything, from the discovery of the pregnancy, and even everything looking like it was resolved with this damn marriage, nothing works, the path just seems to narrow more and more.I close my eyes for a few minutes and imagine my life trodden by three paths. I am single and childless, single and with a child and married with a child. I imagine each of the three, in the smallest detail, but what stuck most was me being a mother, woman and loved one. I didn't want to think about that possibility, but after what happened, what he did for me and the baby and everything he said, this idiocy doesn't get out of my head for nothing. I don't want to feel things for him, I don't want to fall in love, I onl

Samantha pov'sToday I turned three months and one week old. I could feel a small difference in my body, but nothing that would draw attention. I was skinny, I had practically no belly and sometimes I even doubted that I was really having a child. After the scare I had a few weeks ago, certain things started to take a different path and, I confess, I'm surprising myself.Jordan is trying to change some things, to fulfill what he promised me. He has been present at certain times and every once in a while asked about the baby. Whoever advised him, they did a great job and I can only say thank you for that.Yesterday I had a visit from my father, Jordan was not here. For the first time in my life, I felt completely uncomfortable with him, with someone I loved so dearly. Maybe it was because of the things he had said to me, the way he forced me to marry him, I don't know but, is it wrong to stop loving someone who has your blood? Your parent? I tried to be as natural as possible with him,

Jordan's sister was his opposite.She was sweet, fun and friendly.In recent weeks we have begun to closer, she's been like a second sister to me, just like Becca is my first.Having other women around makes me feel good and I can talk openly with them without worrying.Jordan is a little distant, but whenever there is time left from whatever he does, he talks to me, asks if I need anything and then disappears. According to his sister, college is killing him, mainly because it is the last year of his course.I can't complain about the lack of attention (because lately I'm so needy, it's unbearable), After all, we have nothing."What do you want?” I look at the blonde girl in front of me."It could be a strawberry milkshake." I tell her.My then sister-in-law invited me to go for a walk and, of course, I didn't refuse. I haven't been out in a while, I just stayed inside that apartment, looking at nothing. We were at a diner near the house, making small talk."And then? How has my broth

As I gaped at the monitor screen and at Patrick, I felt Jordan's hand slip from mine. My heart was a thousand an hour, after all, I was only waiting for a baby, in the last two ultrasounds I had done, only a single fetus appeared, nothing of a second.I looked at the father of this... These children that I'm having, and he was literally white, pale, looked like he was going to pass out any moment in that room."How come twins? Two? But Patrick, but…” I sat down on the gurney and tried to come up with a train of thought."Two? Holy shit.” Jordan walked over and sat next to me, I touched her hand and, she was super cold."Is everything okay?” I ask softly and he takes a deep breath and looks at me.“I'm just, I'm just surprised.” he says."Patrick" I turn my gaze to him, and he watches me "How is that possible? Can you explain it to us?” He nods."Jordan needs you to get up please, and Sam needs to lie down again. So I'll show better and explain." he says and we agree.As soon as I lay d

A few days had passed, since the sex with the father of my children.Everything was normal between us, nothing that made us uncomfortable, Jordan still joked asking if I wanted to have one more. I confess that I almost gave in, but I didn't, not when there's someone else in the middle.Today I woke up missing home, the place I grew up where my mother remembers, I missed Sean too, I used to We haven't seen each other in a while and my heart even hurts remembering that. My brother could act like an asshole sometimes, but he also knew how to act like a friend, we had our moments before all these things happened and I miss them.My father hasn't looked for me since the wedding, he wasn't even present. I don't know exactly what happened, because he wasn't like that, he was always loving to me even though he was always far away from home and now, behaves like a true stranger, as if I don't even exist. Jordan's parents are always in touch, not only with their son but also with me. Whenever t