Club 001 I just hate this place, I mean seriously we could have gone anywhere in the world than here.He turned off the engine and took his headphones off and then opened the door and got out.I did the same tho it wouldn't be so bad if he oh I don't know opened the car for me and all...I'm just saying.He didn't put his hands around me like last time, he didn't hold me... nothing...he just started walking towards the building.Then he stopped abruptly and turned around and saw me still standing beside his car.He looked at me confused and then sighed and walked back towards me."What?", he asked.I didn't say anything, honestly I didn't even know what he wanted me to say...I just held unto my bag like a three year old."Let's go in", he said."Why?", I asked.He arched his brow, "What do you mean why?"."Why here, what am I doing here, why did you bring me here exactly...I really don't understand", I said.He rubbed his temple,"Lexy, we're not going to do this today, okay? let's go

You see the shit they call Alcohol??Fuck it!!!!I just woke up on Amber's bed today and I wondered what exactly I'm doing here, and then every damn memory of last night flashed into my head and I fucken screamed.Like holy fuck I told Amber that I use to have sex dreams of him, I fucken told him that, and I regret it...!!!!I regret every damn thing that happened last night, what the fuck was I even saying? Shit shit shit fuck fuck fuck shit fucken shit, fuckkkkkkkkkkk.Oh My God all my standards and morals in the trashhhhhh.How am I even supposed to even look him in the face 😭😭Fuck you vodka!I immediately jump out of bed just incase he comes in again, I am not ready to see him, I'll be so fucken embarrassed.I'm so lucky I didn't even talk about my conversation with Tiffany yesterday.Fuck me.I tip toe to the door and opened it quietly, I poked my head out like a three year old and looked left to right about a thousand times before I ran into my room and shut the door behind

I've been unable to think properly for the past 2 days without Amber bumping into my thoughts.For months I've thought I was the saint here, I just realized that I was the monster.Not completely but then...If everything Aaron said that day was true, then I have to be honest with you... I've been too harsh on him.For someone to do all those things by himself and is still struggling to keep me, he's beyond strong.Like.... how can one person carry such amount of pain in one body.Amber is not the monster here, it's his father.That bastard!I don't know where he came from honestly... but he has to go.If Amber doesn't kill him then I will.I strolled downstairs and heard the boys arguing about something...I decided not to care and started heading straight to the kitchen."Good, Lexy is here, Lexy can you please come over", James said stopping me.I groaned, "What?", I said switching lanes and walked towards them."So Jonah had a vacation reservation... you know Jonah right?", he aske

This is the life....Me on a roof top sipping wine and allowing the sun spread his fine rays on me.I just came back from a 45 minutes massage and boy do I feel good."Remind me again why Amber wanted to reject this offer?", I asked taking off my shades.“To stay at home and work",Aaron replied mocking him while taking a sip of his wine.Amber grunted.Honestly since yesterday he's been grumpy and he's not even try to loosen up at all.He bluntly refused to go to the spar with us today, and I had to drag him to the roof top with us."What are the plans for tomorrow?", Asher asked."Well English breakfast here, then a tour round later in the afternoon, and then we're going to a theatre later in the night ", James replied reading the schedule from his phone."I'm definitely not coming ", Amber said standing up and grabbing a bottle of beer from the mini fridge."Why not?", I said sitting up."I don't want to ", he said rigidly."So what, you'll just stay here and do nothing all day whil

For the past 7 days, I've tried to enjoy this short filled happiness but I can't because I'm scared of what will happen when we go back to Italy and everything will go back to the way it has always been.I had dreaded getting back on the plane ( oh did I mention that Amber has his private airplane? you have no idea, I even heard he has a helicopter) to Italy because all the fun will die down and Amber will go back to that same old person he had always been.But like.. it's been 2 days now and like... everything is still the same way.He's sweet, and he'd pick me up from the studio twice and he's being normal and nice like...I don't know why I didn't meet this part of his earlier.But like I'm just scared that we're gonna fall off again and something horrible is going to happen.And I feel like this time it's me that's going to fuck up.So this is Me walking bare feet to his office by 9pm , I knocked...I didn't wait for a response..I opened.He seemed busy whatsoever yeah but we had to