Maybe... Maybe it really is just better to give up on him now. He clearly doesn't want me anymore. It has been clear for months now.But why does it hurt so much, knowing that it is my sister replacing my place in his heart?I want him to be mine forever. I want us to be us forever. But now... it is just a far-fetch idea. A thought of pure desperation, so surreal. A dream I could no longer reach. A belief no longer accurate.Hindi ko namalayang nabitawan ko ang dala kong album, kasabay ng pagbagsak nb mga luha ko. Natigilan silang dalawa sa presensya ko.Hanggang ngayon, kinu-kuwestiyon ko pa din ang sarili ko. Saan ba ako nagkulang? Nagkamali? May nagawa ba ako para mangyari sa amin 'to? Sa akinAno ba kasi 'yon? Baka puwede pa namang itama? Pwede pa ba? Gustong-gusto ko na din kasi sumuko."A-Alam kong obvious naman ang sagot dito sa itatanong ko pero... ayaw mo na ba talaga? Magkatapatan tayo ngayon kasi pagod na pagod na akong mah

I became busy sa work, two days passed already. I wanted to make it up to the both of you for being busy and not being able to atleast take you two out for a coffee. Inuna ko siya kasi mas malapit 'yung location niya. You're aware that I work only 15 minutes away from her condo unit. She texted me early that day na wala daw siyang lakad so I already expected she'd be home.""And she wasn't?" paghula ko.Tumango siya. "What blew my head off was the fact that the guard forbid me to go to her unit. That was the first time visitors are forbidden to enter the tower. Bagong implemented raw na rule. I tried to contact her pero she wasn't answering, right? I approached the receptionist to at least give her unit a call 'cause she wasn't answering my call.I was so shocked to find out from the girl that Saskia never came home. Hindi daw nag-register ang card niya sa last two days."Napatakip ako sa bibig ko sa gulat. This relives that same feeling in me whe

"He does not look as if he grew the life Saskia lived in when she was younger but he sure do look like her. There's no way they're not connected with each other." aniya habang seryosong nagmamaneho. Napansin kong sumilip din siya sa side mirror niya. "Plus, I think Saskia once told me that their family is the direct native children of this province. Way older than the pre-colonial period. It could be that their bloodline kind of also spread among the people here. Baka nga lahat sila dito ay magkakaanak na."I nodded. "Yes. Makes sense."Naghari uli ang katahimikan sa sasakyan as I think of the current situation we're in. Sa totoo lang, 'yung pagpunta namin dito ay walang kasiguraduhan. Kasi paano kung nasa condo na si Saskia? And that she only went somewhere for a bit?"Well, here we are." anunsyo niya nang maiparada na ang sasakyan sa tapat ng bahay nila Saskia."Are we still going to ring the door bell?" tanong ko habang nakatitig sa bahay.

Hindi na ako nag-abala pang buksan 'yung back door para lumabas o sumilip, tatalikod na lang sana ako nang makari ig ako ngmga yapak papalapit sa direksyon nitong kusina.Mabilis akong nagtago sa ilalim ng countertop. I immediately saw the back door opening, a few pair of damp calves entering. Mga babae, and they're dripping of water. Dahil white marble ang sahig ng kusina at dahil basa sila, nagsimula nang mag-putik ang sahig. Ang dumi-dumi na.Instead of worrying if someone catches me hiding under, mas inalala ko pa tuloy ang gagawin kong paglilinis niyan mamaya. I would not expect that someone from this unknown group of people volunteers to clean their mess and leave the areas used clean afterwards.Kaysa aasa sa gano'n, it's much better to just do it myself. Kasi kung gagawin ko 'yon na ako mismo, mas sure ako na magiging malinis talaga 'yon pagkatapos.Narinig kong bumukas-sara ang ref kasunod ng iilang mga tawanan at usapan. I didn't mind ea

Hindi ko na napansin na nasa tapat na kami ng bahay. I can feel the alcohol kicking. I'm dizzy and I feel like doing crazy things. I'm emotional, and I hate it.I said my thank you and went out the car, not really thi king if somebody sees me wasted like this. Wala na akong pakialam sa mundo.Sobra-sobra na 'yung dinadala kong sakit, pakiramdam ko mababaliw na ako. Parang masisiraan na yata ako ng bait. My head is pounding but the pain in my heart could mask it so well.I lazily took off my heels as soon as I stepped in the house. Madilim ang bahay at para bang walang mga tao dito kanina bago ako umalis.Wala na akong pakialam if mahuli man ako ng isa sa mga bisita nila. This is also my house, may karapatan akong maglakad-lakad dito. I feel ridiculous hiding earlier just because Athena's visitors suddenly entered the kitchen.I mean, bakit ako nagtago? Bakit ako magtatago? This is also my house!I took my time going up the stairs