Our flight left Logan at six thirty in the morning. I was so nervous, I didn’t sleep at all. I thought I would pass out on the plane, but that didn’t happen. I hadn’t flown in over two years. The last time was when I went on vacation to Florida with Tyler and his family and that was the first time I ever left New England on a plane. So, my nervous system is in full effect. The flight was about seven hours in total. And for all of those hours I thought about our night before. We had a direct flight, which was great. I really don’t like flying, but I knew Elliot needed support so I put my fear aside. Leaving Boston at six in the morning and arriving in San Diego at nine thirty in the morning, is a little crazy when you think about it. It was seven hours later, but really only three. It felt like going back in time. As soon as we got outside he pulled me in for a sweet kiss. I was not expecting that, at all. “I’m not sure I could have held off any longer. I love those l

We are sitting in the airport waiting to board the plane. Elliot is working on some things from his laptop and I am pretending to read a book. But, all I am thinking about is the last couple days. Yes, we decided to stay an extra two days. I finished my work and sent it in, and Elliot had a few zoom meetings he had to jump on, but the last two days were perfect. We ordered room service, barely leaving our room. We swam and had some drinks by the pool before our massage, but we stayed inside most of the time. We talked a lot about the craziness that happened. But relieved in a way. Elliot did confess he wanted to have kids, but obviously in a different situation. He talked a lot about his family, he loves them and I love him for loving them. He reminds me a lot of my dad. My dad is amazing. Really big on family and he taught me “You never go against the family. Loyalty is key.” That means some things you take to the grave. He wants me to meet his family, but in ord

The next morning was very uneventful. I worked, alot. Elliot was busy with meetings and I just wanted to crush my next manuscript. This promotion was coming up and I needed to get it. I am determined. If I nailed it, I would get promoted to head editor. I would get a contract that would help me out financially. It would help me pay off my student loans faster and be able to save, maybe get a car. Wait, I am definitely going to get a car. A little after noon Elliot got the call from his lawyer friend. He was going to write up a cease and desist letter to be served to Riley. She will be legally served papers to stop contacting us. If that does not stop her we may have to figure out the next steps. I don’t even want to think of that. I just want to go on living my life without her involvement. Elliot has slept here since we have gotten back from California. We will be on night three tonight. I enjoy it, it works. I know it’s the stage at the beginning of the re

I barely slept, I couldn't stop thinking about the promotion and Elliot meeting my dad, me meeting his family. Today was going to be a big day. I am nervous and my stomach is totally feeling it, too. My nerves haven’t been this bad in almost ten years. The last time I felt this was when I was about to make my confirmation. I had to get up and say something, but in front of what seemed like 500 people. It wasn’t a good day that day. I took out my journal. I am trying to write a little each day even if it is one sentence. I lifted the pen and wrote some things. May 4th 2023 Life is moving in a direction that is foreign to me. I can’t believe I just landed this amazing job, I have an amazing boyfriend. My bestie is amazing, life is amazing. Here’s to an amazing day. Gosh, I am cheesy. Xoxo Soph. I look over at my phone and the clock it's not even five in the morning. “What the heck?” I said out loud. I throw the covers off of me, and I put my sneakers on. I throw on a

I Woke up in the middle of the night. Frantic and I was soaking wet with sweat. Another nightmare but this time I was being chased with a knife down an alley. A dark alley with trash all over the place. I was being chased by a dark figure. I couldn't see who it was. I was trying to find a way out and I got trapped. I noticed a big dumpster I could try to jump on and climb up onto the roof but I couldn't get up. I kept struggling and the dark figure kept getting closer, and the next thing I know I am sitting up in bed dripping. Elliot rolls over to bring close and realizes I am sitting up. He reaches up to bring me down and feels the dampness of my sweat. The entire side of the bed where I am is soaked. “Hey, what's going on Soph?” I switch on the lamp and I just lose it. I am crying, my head in my hands. “I have no idea, I had another nightmare.” I am trying to breathe, in through my nose, out through my mouth. He gets up and goes over to my dresser. Opens the dr