บททั้งหมดของ Hated By The Rogue Alpha: บทที่ 51 - บทที่ 60

I stared at the door licking my lips in anticipation. I had over and over again rehearsed how I was going to ask Jonathan for permission to go to the back mountains. The day before, Serena had suggested that I find Aurora and ask her as she was in the best position to allow me into the back mountains and we had joked about if I had lasted a few more days at the medicine house, I would have been able to go to the back mountain just because I were there but unfortunately, that was no longer possible because I had left the medicine house in the worst, in the funniest way possible.I had taken a few days to practice how to ask for permission from him. It had to be as natural as possible. I couldn’t stutter, I couldn’t show how anxious I was either. I had to be as calm as possible because I wasn’t just asking for permissions,I had to find some other things as well. The two things I had to do were as important as each other. I sucked in my breath, trying breathing exercises before I pushed

Early the next morning, both I and Julianna woke up early. Serena woke up with us but she was still too sleepy to accompany us. We laughed at her as she struggled with waking up. Julianna and I ended up leaving her in the room and we grabbed our sickles and baskets and headed out of the room. Serena liked or loved to sleep and unless it was a biological clock which was around 8am, she would never wake up and would even struggle to wake up at 8 am. That was the type of person she was.Julianna led the way as she walked out of the place, our baskets carried over our backs like medicine attendants as she walked towards the back mountain. Everywhere was still foggy and not clear yet Juliana walked with dexterity and I was quick and sharp to follow her with agility. It was something that had been honed from over time. Julianna and I exchanged one or two words as we walked towards the back mountain.It was an area I had never gone to at all so I tried to look curiously around if I could rec

Tending to my herbs and plants became my all time favourite. Making pastes and concoctions to try out new things and sometimes forcing down my throat was both exciting and interesting but I got lucky every time and whether I had to spit it out or not, I never had the opportunity to be affected by the things I was making. Sometimes if the pastes and conctions didn’t look bitter or scary, Serena and Julianna didn’t mind helping me try them to see the different reactions it would give everyone.And after so many trails; I had successfully made a paste that stopped bleeding, I had sliced my arm with a knife to prove that point and the paste, thick and with a rather nude smell had stopped the bleeding and not only that, my skin had scalded over the wound in a few things so easier. The paste would be effective for soldiers in minor injuries, I couldn’t say if it would be effective if tried on deep wounds but I knew that it would at least do something but my discoveries and inventions were m

Avoidance.That was the path I took in dealing with the situation. I couldn’t sort out my feelings even after sleeping and I couldn’t face Jonathan either so I avoided him perfectly. I waited till I was sure he was out of the room before cleaning, I made sure that I was gone before he even thought or imagined that I was in the room. I stopped cleaning the store room for now since I didn’t want to overhear something else.The room had successfully left a shadow on me and I was just generally tired. Cleaning the store room meant that I was allowing myself to run into Jonathan and I certainly didn’t want to see him. I was avoiding him. I couldn't pretend that everything was fine when I saw him.And so I spent my time n the medicine room he had found someone to give me. At first, I was too hurt to use it, I didn’t want to use it but I didn’t have a reason not to. It was easier to work in and I could make whatever sort of mess in there. It gave me ease and made me calm down. Working with t

The way the truth co-exists was such a weird way. Just because you don’t agree with it doesn't make it any less of the truth and that was the case scenario in my case. I didn’t know how long I stayed in Jonathan's arms that day. How long he held me because he didn’t have an answer to my question, and because even I didn’t know if I was ever going to leave. It was an unforgettable ache in my heart and there was nothing I could do about it.Juniper sighed softly as he rubbed my arm, "You look terrible Ami” he said softly and I chuckled.“You can't blame me” I replied and he nodded his head rubbing my back.“Nobody is blaming you. I don’t dare” he replied and I turned to him with a small chuckle.“I’m tired Juniper, really tired” I replied and Juniper’s eyes softened.“I don’t know what to say Ami, I’m as tired as you but I have to be less tired than you so that I can be strong for you” he replied and I chuckled.When I realized that Jonathan couldn’t answer my question that day, I had a