Semua Bab Hated By The Rogue Alpha: Bab 41 - Bab 50

I remained in my bed the next day, I couldn’t go ahead and clean Jonathan’s room like nothing had happened. I was tired all of a sudden and I was also at a loss on what to do as well. I couldn’t have a life here yet I wanted to live. In my usual hard times, it was always Juniper’s words that I should be grateful that I’m alive that kept me going. Being alive meant that one day, I would leave, that one day things would change, that one day, I would be able to have my own life.I raised my hand and stared at the bracelet that was a chain on my hand, never to be removed, it was a constant reminder that I was a slave and I closed my eyes again. When I had replied to Serena, she had pulled me in for a hug and I had sobbed ever so hard. I thought I was doing fine alright but the clinic had brought back so many memories for me, broke the false facade I had created for myself and made me realize that the life I claimed I was living was a total lie and they were right. If only they let me live

Running to the confines of my room was the first thing I did as I stormed out of the door, I prayed that there would be nobody in the room and the Moon Goddess answered my prayers. I slammed the room door shut and walked to my bed, sitting slowly while burying my face in my palm. It was hard to believe what had happened. No one would dae believe.It was a moment for vulnerability but I knew that I couldn’t absolve myself of every responsibility. I had let him hug him, touch me and kiss me and I had even kissed him back. It was unheard of. That I had allowed my enemy, My life's own enemy , the person who had killed my father and ruined my life, I had allowed him to kiss me. It was unheard of. It was a secret I was carrying to my own grave.As I laid there on the bed trying too hard to forget about what had happened while beating myself up for even allowing myself to find comfort in his arms in the first place.How did that happen?I closed my eyes for a second to catch my breath and th

I marched towards the kitchen area fuming. It was hard to believe what had just happened. I had thought our meeting would be weird and we would avoid each other, who knew that Jonathan would act like nothing had happened. As thought he had pressed me against himself and kissed me the day before. Thinking about how he had asked me to go back to the clinic was making me mad.I knew Masoma had talked to him. So much for thinking that she was a friend. I had no friends here, no one at all was my friend and I had forgotten that. I had learnt my lesson in a hard way and I regretted ever thinking that people would want to be my friends here. Over the past three months, only Juniper and Serena had proved repeatedly that they were my friends, the rest failed so miserably and yet again, I had my guards up.“Oh my goodness, is that you Princess?” a familiar voice drifted into my ears and I paused, turning to see a group of girls behind me.“I told you that was her” another girl said and I sighed

“I know that I do this all the time but I can’t help but apologize every time” Juniper said softly and I shook my head.“Not everyone knows that you are a sweet human being, not everyone knows the true you” Juniper added , “If they knew nobody would treat you the way they did. If only they knew the true Amira” he whispered as he placed his hand over mine and I met his soft eyes and immediately shook my head.“That’s still not an excuse Juni” I replied, feeling grossly unsatisfied. It was not an excuse. It had been a long while since I had felt this way in the Berg Kingdom. I thought that I was accustomed to the way they treated me but I obviously wasn’t. Not even one bit. The only thing that was different was that I had just decided to swallow my grievances before now.“What if they don’t know me? What if they don’t know the real me? That’s still not an excuse to treat me like garbage. They all hate me and I’m not even responsible for anything” I said as my voice got higher and higher

My conversation with Juniper was both eye opening and both worrying. It was eye opening that I started to realize that in truth, I was different from most slaves but most of the slaves came from a royal lineage. None of them were Princesses when they were captured. None of them were through the same torture as I did. None of them were hated by virtually everyone in the kingdom. Why was I so different?It was hard to understand or conjure up a reason why it was like that for me. It became glaring obvious after a few days that Juniper was right. Comparing myself to other slaves, there was a little bit of favoritism on my side. Not even the members of the Berg Kingdom could learn medicine if they wanted. There was a test and if they passed, they got in and there was me who indicated interest and immediately was asked to start attending classes.But why? Why was I allowed to suffer and then all of a sudden, he was being nice to me? All of a sudden, he found out he could comfort me and ki