Semua Bab LOVE AND LUST: Bab 31 - Bab 40

Leila felt beautiful and sexy and like a goddess all at the same time, but deep down, beneath the happiness she was feeling, she could not get Jordan out of her head. He was in her past and she thought she had forgotten him but now that she talked to him, it brought back plenty buried memories. Jordan was the love of her life back when she was still in Cali and she loved him with everything she had, they even decided to get married on her sixteenth birthday, she took her aunt to stand as her legal guardian because she was not yet a legal citizen. The first few months was really nice, she felt like she was in another world entirely but things started changing when she got pregnant and Jordan started being under the influence, the whole booze and little shots of heroine turned to stealing oxy from the pharmacy and going in drinking competitions that he would never win and he would be passed out by the end of the night, since she was his wife, she had to take care of him. She silently to

Leila felt the tears streaming down her face, “I am very sorry for not mentioning anything about it Gavin” Gavin only nodded in response, he did not know what to say. “I had honestly put everything behind my back and then I got a call from him to come and pick him up from the penitentiary since he was getting released on parole. Something about the prison being overcrowded. Gavin nodded again, he still had not found his ability to talk yet. The whole situation was shocking to him. Leila? Married? Leila smiled, her eyes were swollen, “I think I should just leave, where are my stuff from last night?” Gavin pointed to the dresser without saying a word. He gave a quick nod before leaving the room. She bawled her eyes out, she was expecting a harsh reaction but this was too much for her to take on, he had basically given her the silent treatment. She dressed up quietly, she checked the room and saw a door leading to the bathroom. There was a big mirror inside the bathroom and

“What do you want to talk about?” Leila asked Gavin slowly. When she got the text message from him, she was scared at first but after a few minutes, the fear turned into curiosity. “You clearly lied to me about your marital status! How do you expect me to get past that?” Gavin shouted “Please, reduce your voice, we are still in the company premises and I would not want anybody to think it is because we have a thing” Leila hushed him. Gavin rolled his eyes, “ That is the truth, we have a thing like you said and I think you should answer my question, I deserve an answer” Leila cleaned the bead of sweat on her forehead with the tissue paper she got from her bag, “What question is that?” Her voice was weak, she needed to rest well, she had not gotten enough rest after the trip she made to pick up Jordan from the penitentiary. “How do we get past you lying to me about your marital status?” Gavin repeated. Leila gave a bitter laugh, “Lied? Lied? We did not talk about it and you did n

“One American iced tea please” Leila said to the waiter at her favorite coffee shop, she wanted to take alcohol on her way back home from Emily’s place but she caught herself fast enough, she was pregnant, it still felt alien to her, the way she was, a life was growing inside of her, it felt terrifying and peaceful at the same time and she could not explain why. Her stomach growled angrily and she silently cursed while looking around to make sure nobody heard. On a normal day, she would have stayed hungry till the next day but now she had to eat something because of the baby, everything was changing so fast. “You can have your order ma’am” the waiter said in a polite voice. Leila scanned his name tag, “Thank you Thomas” In front of the coffee shop, she contemplated calling Gavin to inform him about the pregnancy but she decided against it, they were not really in a good place and Gavin was already expecting a child from Adele, she could not just tell him without having a plan. She

“I made you dinner” Jordan said in a sweet voiceShe did not know if his voice was sweet or she was the one thinking it was that way because of the fact that she had started to forgive him. It did not hurt whenever his name popped into her mind. Maybe he was actually all changed. “Thank you Jordan. You really did not have to” Leila replied after an eternity. Her mind was occupied, she was contemplating informing Jordan that she was pregnant already. One mind was telling her that she needed to tell him, he was still her husband and they were living under the same roof and the other mind was saying that she should not tell him since the father of the baby also did not know about the baby’s existence. “I made your favorite though, Hurry before it gets cold” Jordan said calmly. Leila actually smiled, a sincere smile, it was not forced at all and she had started to actually like Jordan staying with her. She thought about Gavin again, she could not get the man out of her head.She sighed