Lahat ng Kabanata ng HIS TO CLAIM: Kabanata 31 - Kabanata 40

DianthaHalos kalahating oras din ako na nanatili lamang sa banyo, cursing and scolding myself for letting those things happen between me and Icarus.It wasn't until I finally got tired and had enough that I took a bath, got dressed, and got out of my room.Thankfully, nang makalabas na ako ng banyo ay wala na si Icarus sa kwarto ko.Dahil hindi ko alam kung paano ko siya pakikiharapan ng kaming dalawa lang.Being alone with Icarus in the same room always led to disaster, so I better not be alone with him anymore.Hindi na ako magtatagal dito sa hacienda.While I was taking a bath, I already had a resolve that I will not be staying in this hacienda any longer. I would still be doing the planning, but the rest of the work will be passed to Ana.Sigurado akong hindi magugustuhan ni Icarus ang desisyon ko, pero wala akong pakialam. It's not like we've signed a contract. So I can back out whenever I want.I knew I was being unprofessional, but it doesn't matter anymore.I needed to put a

IcarusIsang linggo na ang lumipas mula ng umalis si Diantha sa hacienda. At isang linggo na rin akong nagmumukmok.Kung kailan inakala kong may magbabago na sa relasyon naming dalawa, kung kailan inakala kong malapit ko na siyang mapaamin that what we were feeling towards each other was more than just sexual, ay saka naman siya nag-anunsyong aalis na siya ng hacienda.What a way to break my confidence and my delusions, isn't it?At Alam ko rin na hindi lang pag-alis sa hacienda ang ibig niyang sabihin when she announced that she's leaving.She was also silently telling me that she does not want me in her life anymore, and vice versa.A throaty chuckle escaped my lips.As if that was possible.As long as she's tied to Ashton, she will never be able to get rid of me no matter how much she tries.Dinampot ko ang bote ng alak at akmang iinom na ulit ako nang biglang bumukas ang mga ilaw.Saka ko narinig ang boses ni Ruby. "Sabi ko na nga ba eh. Naglalasing ka na naman."Lumapit siya sa s

DianthaBefore I realized what I was doing, I was already kissing Icarus back. And even when I already realized it, I could not stop myself anymore. At imbes na itulak si Icarus ay humawak pa ako sa kanyang balikat upang balansehin ang aking katawan na tila nawawalan ng lakas habang patuloy kaming naghahalikan.As usual, my brain screamed at me to stop kissing him back. Pero katulad ng palaging nangyayari, hindi sumunod ang katawan ko.Hindi ko na rin alam kung ano ang dapat kong maramdaman. Labis na akong naguguluhan.I knew it was wrong, but at the same time, I did not want to end it either because as much as I did not want to admit it, I was liking what was happening. In fact, I did not even realized it until now—when our lips were touching—but I was craving for this.For his lips. For his touch. And for his attention.I've been trying to deny and ignore it, but deep inside me, I knew that I missed him.Sa isang linggo na hindi niya pagpapakita sa akin, hinanap-hanap ko siya. I was

IcarusConfessing to Diantha was not planned.Letting her know that I am crazily in love with her was not something I intended to do.What I initially planned was to seduce her like I always do because I knew that no matter how much she tries to deny it, she is attracted to me. And I also knew that even if she tried to run away from me, she's gonna come back, just like how she could not deny my advances every single time.Telling her how I felt was not something I was prepared for.But the thing was, despite it not being my original intention, I was not feeling even an ounce of regret. I was not even feeling nervous.In fact, what I felt was satisfaction.I could compare it to the fulfillment that I've always felt whenever I played with my favorite puzzle game when I was a kid, and found the last right piece for it to be completed.It seemed that being honest to Diantha about what I truly feel for her was one of the things that I needed to do to somehow put my heart at ease, even if i

DianthaMuli kaming naghalikan na para bang wala nang bukas.Mapusok, marahas, at buong pagmamadali—na tila ba ito na ang huling beses na magtatagpo ang aming mga labi, na alam ko namang imposible pang mangyari sa ngayon.Dahil kahit pa hindi ako sigurado kung pareho ba kami ng nararamdaman ni Icarus, sigurado naman ako na babalik-balikan ko pa rin siya, katulad ng palaging nangyayari.I could try to run, but I knew damn well I would always come back to him and would always want to be claimed by him, at least physically and sexually.Mula sa aking mga labi ay bumaba ang labi ni Icarus sa aking mga panga, kissing it and biting it na tila ba nanggigigil siya. Then he went lower, down to my neck, doing the exact same thing that he did to my jaws. At kasabay ng pagiging abala ng mga labi niya ay siya namang paggalaw na ng mga kamay niya.He pulled down the sleeves of my dress until my bra showed.Isang ungol ang namutawi sa aking mga labi ng tumungo ang mga labi niya sa aking mga balikat