Whispers of the Heart のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 121 - チャプター 130

First: “I should have realized we weren’t good for each other. I deserve someone better than you and you can stay in the slums where you belong.” My heart lurched and it felt was if I had just been hit head on by a truck. Those same words, or almost identical, to what he said to Gary that morning as we were leaving English class on that first day of school. A gut-wrenching sob tore from my gut but I quickly capped my hand over my mouth to stop the noise as I slunk down into the seat. Second: “Seeing her again just made me see that you are nothing compared to her.” All of my self-doubts came rushing back in full force. He had seen me naked, he had touched me and he was now comparing us. I didn’t measure up and was not what he wanted afterall. He was only being nice because it was my birthday and he didn’t want to make a mockery of me. Third: “Hope you enjoy this video and imagine what I am doing with her right now.”The only thing left was the video. I knew I would not want to see w

I hurried out of the back, wondering which girl Barb was referring to. Sitting in the same booth I had just cleaned was Vanessa. She gave me a sympathetic smile as I came out, one I couldn’t return and I felt myself getting emotional again.I slowly walked over. “What can I get you?”“Nothing. I’m not here to eat or drink. Can we talk?”“Did he send you?” I couldn’t even say his name.“No, not really. I came because I wanted to but he does know I am here. You deserve an explanation and right now, I don’t think any of that needs to come from him. He hurt you too bad.”I slid into the booth seat across from her with a sigh, my lips held tight and thin. “You’re right, he did.”“This has all been a huge misunderstanding, Aurora. Owen loves you.”I scoffed as she said this, the tears building up. I grabbed a napkin from the dispenser and wiped them before they could flow.“How is it a misunderstanding, Vanessa? I have the video, I saw it all. It came from his phone! How can that be a misund

I opened up to Vanessa while we were driving more details about my mother that I hadn't shared with her yet and her relationship with men and how that affected my view of sex and relationships. I also explained that I had always known that unless my choice was taken away, I would only ever give myself to someone I totally trusted, was completely in love with and that I knew loved me unconditionally, too. I told her that I thought I had that with Owen and I even told her what he did on my birthday just as we had pulled in the driveway at the house.“Shut up! Seriously! Aurora, honey. That should tell you how much he loves you. You are only like his second serious relationship. His relationship with Chloe was only serious because he was forced into it and she was serious about him, not the other way around. He never even talked about her and when he did, it wasn’t with that goofy, far away, puppy dog eyed look that he has anytime someone mentions your name. And, that someone is usually h

He looked at me, his eyes filled with regret, sadness and longing. “Me, too. I feel like I don’t deserve you anymore. I hurt you. I didn’t mean to but I still hurt you after I promised that I wouldn’t. What happened there, though. That’s not me, that’s not who I am. I would never send anything that nasty intending to destroy you and especially not by text. And, I would never cheat. If you take anything from what happened tonight, please remember that. I would tell you face to face and try to end things as smoothly as possible. What she attempted tonight was just mean and cruel, which I believe were her intentions.”“I know that now and I will remember that. I hope we never have to go through something like this again. Like, I know we will have fights and arguments but hopefully, we never have to face anything like this again.”“We won’t. I won’t let anything like this happen again.”“So, where do we go from here?”“Well, for starters. Aurora Grace Butler, will you be my girlfriend agai

Owen POV continuedI wasted no time pulling it off of her and tossing it behind me as my thumb and forefinger created cups encasing both perfect mounds just as the underwire of the bra had just moments ago. I spent a great amount of time in worship of this perfect area of her body, my mouth, tongue and teeth appreciated every supple inch of perfectness that I could touch and taste. Whether it was her natural fragrance, her lotion, her perfume or a combination of all, her flesh and body held a scent that was rich with the smell of peaches and vanilla, a scent that had become my addiction. Everything about her was perfectly delicious and all mine.“Owen, I need you so badly.” She whispered against my ear, having gripped my head in her hands as I treasured and appreciated her amazing perky twins.“Patience, baby.” I murmured against the beating of her heart as I nuzzled my nose in that sacred valley again and planted a soft kiss. “I’ll get you there in just a few minutes but I am a long t