Semua Bab NIRELLE: Bab 41 - Bab 50

NIRELLEI know I lied to Cassian about the sightseeing, but everything I was seeing was different from the last time I was allowed to wander the world alone. I just searched up fun places on my phone and tried to act normal and blend in, although it was too difficult for me with all the bodyguards. So when I saw people staring, I would know that it was because of the guards and not because they knew how I was and that I was trying to end my life.I get a call from Cassian; he tells me that it is finally time for lunch, and he has been anticipating it. I shrug off the eerie feeling that his statement creates in me, and then I ask the driver to take me for lunch. I could not have been happier at the time he called since I was starving.I walk into the restaurant that Cassian had asked us to meet at, and I can tell that he was trying to impress me with the interior of this place. I walk in and notice that even though it is rush hour, the restaurant is empty with a few guards at the door.

  NIRELLE"What do you want?" The sound of my own crying voice startles me just a bit. I look back at Theo blankly. "You did not say he was here, too. Is he here to apologise?" I ask."If I had said he was, would you have opened up?" Theo asked, and I asked myself the question multiple times before shaking my head slowly. All of this was his fault and no one else's. If he had not been a jerk to me last night, then I would not have tried to provoke him and ended up in this mess."Is he here to apologise?" I asked, feeling my throat crack a bit as the words flowed."I don't know why he is here, but I am here to apologise." I can see Lucien's discomfort at his friend not taking the initiative for him."Then only you can come in." I step aside, and Theo steps in. I try to close the door, but it won't; his body is midway in the frame, and his hand is holding t

LUCIENI am startled awake out of bed, sitting down and trying to calm my heartbeat in my chest. I look around the pitch-dark room before my easy fall to the bedside alarm clock. I sigh as I realise it is a few minutes past 2 am. I had fallen asleep only to be awakened by this nightmare. It had been years since I had had one. I had managed to keep away all of the triggers that caused them, but now that I had to talk to Nirelle about it, all of the memories I had thought I had overcome came flooding back.So I had not been able to overcome it? I just thought that I did. I sigh and rub the sleep out of my eyes; with this, I know I won't be able to sleep again. I take up my phone and sit facing the large window that overlooks the entire house floor with one view, and I begin to try and catch up with work. I am scrolling endlessly on social media because it is impossible for me to focus on one thing now, and it is a much-needed distraction that I need.My eyes fall on a video, and my hear

NIRELLEI want to act as if everything is fine, but there has never been anything fine with me. I sigh as I stare at myself in the mirror. I had gotten Lucien and Theo in this mess; I must do what I have to do to get them out of it, even though it means that I have to meet up with Cassian again.I did not know if it was because I had a crush on him that blinded me to see everything sketchy about him, but now that I look at it with a new light, I can't help but see everything that I had missed. Clarendon had been frequent at our house while I was growing up, but I was sure that it was because he worked with Enoch.He had the same lingering gaze that Enoch always had with me but never tried anything inappropriate with me, so I would never have suspected him. His wife was never on good terms with my mom, which was extremely weird as well. I sigh and feel the light weight of the brush against my skin gently. I close my eyes and take another deep breath to steady myself."Mrs. Vexley?" One

NIRELLE"You made it." Cassian tried to go in for a hug, but I took a step back before he could, and I saw the look of disappointment cross his face. "Am I repulsive?" His pride was shining through; it was almost sickening, but I was going to play the doll he thought that I was."Repulsive? What do you mean by that?" I ask, trying to act as clueless as possible. "Why would I?" I ask, blinking rapidly at him."I tried to hug you just now, and you moved away." His ego did not like the reaction it was getting. It's almost as if he expected me to bow down and worship him in that moment."Oh, it's nothing about you; it's just my preference," I say as I slide into my chair gently. He pushes me in and comes to sit in front of me with a smug smile on his face. I wish I were not here to play the doll; I would have wiped that smile off his face without thinking too much about it."Are you saying you don't hug men?" he asked."What does that mean?""You are married; do you not have any intimate a