All Chapters of My Hot Alpha: Chapter 361 - Chapter 370

The sob fell from my lips as I held onto him for dear life. My emotions hit, reality seeping in. I had never been sure if I was ready to be a mom, but I never wished for anything like this to happen.My head was a mess. I still couldn’t understand how I could miss something I never had but I did. Our baby was part of me, part of us and now nothing.“I just want to go home please”. I cried.“I’m so sorry baby”. He whispered kissing the top of my head. “I’m so so sorry”.I wasn’t sure how long he held me, but I didn’t want him to let go. As much as I was angry, he always had a way of calming me down. He moved us making sure I was comfortable, my head resting against his chest.“Is this okay for you, are you sore?”.I was but I didn’t care. I didn’t want to move.He was my safe place and right now I needed him more than ever...I was ready to be discharged. Well, I was discharging myself. The doctor came and went. Explaining to me and preparing me for what happens after a miscarriage.B

True to her word Charlotte dropped off a bag of my things. I was sitting on the hospital bed, hair still wet from the shower, stuck in my own head, stuck with my own thoughts.I wanted so badly to remember the accident, but I was getting nowhere. I remembered nothing other than waking up here.“Do you want me to brush out your hair?”. He asked.Since when has he ever done that?I shook my head. My hair I could manage but showering was a whole different story. My body ached, my face the worst. My nose wasn’t broken but it was fractured. The bruising had already started to show, nice dark purple ones.“Do you want me to get you anything?”.“Some tea would be nice”.“Okay baby. Are you feeling any better?”.“Still sore but I’ll heal”.“Yeah, you will”. He kissed the top of my head before leaving the room.I was uncomfortable. The cramps hadn’t started yet but I was bleeding heavily, and I was afraid I was going to leak right through. As much as I was against staying another night, I was

We had been home for around half an hour, and he hadn’t stopped fussing since the minute I walked through the door. I loved him dearly, but I didn’t want him smothering me.I was fine, I was okay.I was dealing with it in my own way.“Do you need me to get you anything?”. He asked.“I’m okay for now”. I was comfortable on the couch with a cup of tea.“Are you comfortable enough? Maybe I should get you a blanket? And food you need to eat something”.“Hey, hey”. I grabbed hold of his hand as he laid the blanket over my lap. “Stop fussing I’m okay”.“I just want to look after you Leah. Please let me do that”.“All I’m saying is you don’t need to be here if you have stuff to do. I’m only going to be sitting here anyway. Besides your phone’s been vibrating since we got home”.“Yeah, they can wait. How about a grilled cheese sandwich and some chips on the side?”.“Sounds good”. I smiled.I thought I’d want to be alone, to deal with this on my own. I thought I’d want to shut the world out an

Lacey didn’t show up and the night was ending. Lana was passed out on the couch and Alanna, and I were out back sitting round the fire pit.Jake had disappeared up the stairs a while ago leaving us to have some much-needed girl time. It was nice spending time with the girls. It was just a shame Lacey felt she couldn’t join us.“Remember when you punched Jake in the face?”. She laughed.“I do”. I grinned.“That was a good night”.“It was”. I agreed. “Until I ended up with a broken hand because I punched a werewolf in the face”.“Bet it felt good though”. She winked.“It did”. I laughed. “But we won’t talk about that”.“You’re both good though, right?”.“We are”. I nodded.“And you, you’re doing, okay?”.I shrugged. “I’m okay I guess”. I wasn’t sure how to process it. I still didn’t understand how to grieve something I never had to begin with. But I dealt with it the best way I knew how and that was by not talking about it.I was burying it until I was ready and right now, I wasn’t read

I didn’t want to get up. I could hear the shower running so I knew Jake was awake. I didn’t get to sleep till late because my mind wouldn’t shut off. I had all the time in the world to think.No distractions. Nothing to focus on other than my thoughts. Everything running around in my head over and over again.Could I have done something different? Was I to blame for the loss of our child?I woke up sad, I already knew today wasn’t going to be a good day. I didn’t want to be sad, I wanted to push past this and move on, but I couldn’t. I couldn’t stop the guilt.The constant reminder that I wasn’t pregnant anymore.“Morning baby. I made you coffee”. He nodded towards my bedside drawer.There he was. Wet from the shower, a towel hung around his waist. He only wanted to be there for me, to look after me and yet every fiber in my body wanted to push him away.In my mind dealing with this on my own was the only way through. But I promised I wouldn’t shut him out. I promised myself I’d lean