All Chapters of After Him: Chapter 41 - Chapter 50

He held out my hand and guided me to my room. He's quiet and serious as I am. When we reached my room, we remained silent. Good thing he didn't stay so long. He kissed me on my forehead before he left. I pushed myself to my bed and breathed heavily.I know what he said earlier, though it wasn't direct, I know. I understand it. But I'm still confused. I feel sad and hurt at the same time whenever I think of what he said.He's ignoring me because he doesn't want me to be confused. He chose not to talk to me. He's mad at Xavier for not seeing what he's seen to me. I sighed. He's mad because he thinks I don't deserve all of this. He wants to take me away from Xavier but he couldn't because he thinks I still love him. He's willing to hide me, and he wants to ask for his chance but couldn't ask because he doesn't want to burden me. He doesn't like to put me in a situation that might cause me trouble. "This is even harder, Lucas. Can't you see?" I whispered to myself. I made sure that I am

"It wasn't intentional but I wouldn't say sorry," he said like a child. I just made a face and removed myself from his hug. He allowed me and watched me sit on the couch. I looked away.My heart beats so fast. This wasn't the first time I got nervous in front of him. This wasn't the first time that my heart went wild for him either. But then, this feels strange. It makes me smile and amazed. This is actually new to me because I never really felt this tickling feeling from Xavier.I glanced at him and his eyes met mine. He's looking at me intently, observing each move I make. He raised his eyebrow on me but I didn't react.How could you make me feel this way Lucas? How come this feels like the first time I truly fell in love? Why does it feel like this is my first love? I looked away and thought more. Am I not sure of my feelings for him?"Vy!," Gail shouted, which made me stop from thinking about those things more. Her voice is loud as if we're really on a huge distance.She sat besi

I woke up the next day because of the sunlight that's hitting my face. I smiled as I remembered how beautiful the island is. I prepared myself for the day and then decided to go down.I wore a simple black dress with my slippers and bun my hair then put on some lip gloss. I look at my reflection before coming out of the room.I was greeted by the laughs coming from the receiving area of this house. I could hear Gail's voice as well so I know that she's already awake and teasing Uno.And I'm correct. I saw almost everyone in the living room, playing scrabble. I walked towards them and laughed when I saw Gail punishing Uno for putting an unfamiliar word.I stand beside Ramiel who's also smiling while watching them. "Good morning, Miss."I smiled at him and greeted him back, "Good morning, Ram. Just call me Vy," I told him.He nodded and smiled a bit. I turned and focused on Gail and Uno who's still playing. They're really much alike. Both children love to tease each other. We were laug

I love you now, Lucas. But this is too much. I have loved you unconsciously and now here I am— hurt and broken; more than I have ever been before."You should have not given me reasons to leave you, Lucas."That's the last straw of my strength. I turned around and left them there. Gail and Uno followed me.Everything sinks in now. I already love Lucas more than I loved Xavier. That's why the pain is more painful. My feelings for him are deep so it cuts deep too.I busied myself with the scenery, I could sense Gail still looking at me. She's cryinging, she's hurt for me. And even if I don't want to see her crying, I still don't have the courage to comfort her. I couldn't even stop myself from crying.The pain is too much for me. Everything wasn't true, it's all part of their plan.I thought I didn't deserve this? He said I don't deserve to be taken for granted. But look at me now, fuck. Lucas did this to me.We reached the pier on time. We were all quiet. Uno is observing us. "We're o

My whole life, I’ve never thought about anyone else but other people — the people around me. There was never any space in my mind for myself. Not even once did I voice out my own questions. I always kept everything to myself and never received any answers.I know they never forced me to love and value them, but isn’t it true that it’s not a good enough reason to hurt me? It’s not a good enough reason to use me and take advantage of my love.All I ever did was love and value them while all they ever did was use and take advantage of me. To sacrifice me for others and discard me afterward.I’m tired now — tired of just accepting it. I want to do something for myself, and this is the beginning of that. I won’t allow myself to feel unimportant anymore. Even if it’s not for them, at least for myself now.---We arrived at the venue five minutes before the show started. One of the event staff immediately greeted me and led me to the waiting area. The band was already there, along with Saman