All Chapters of I CHOOSE HIM, BUT HE'S MY ENEMY: Chapter 41 - Chapter 50

~IVY~For the first time I'm actually asleep by midnight. There's no nightmares, no sweating and abruptly jerking up from sleep.Oh I wish it were true. I wish I was actually sleeping peacefully with no sweating and nightmares.Instead, my eyes are wide open as though my blood was replaced with caffeine, my body already used to being awake by this time. 12:00am is like 1:00pm for me, it's normal.Unlike previous times, I didn't mind staying awake at night, but tonight, I wanted to actually sleep. It's tiring having your mind work all day with little rest. I've tried even my most effective method of falling asleep, reading my ethics and history textbook, but yet nothing. I'm wide awake, sitting on my bed, staring at the full moon that shines brightly in the star filled sky.It's one of those nights where you look at the sky and understand why people love star gazing. It's a beautiful night. Too bad I don't have someone to share it with. Roxie must be fast asleep by now. How badly do I

~IVY~If there’s one thing I’ve learned since coming to this academy, it’s that nothing important ever stays on the surface.Not the truth. Not danger. And definitely not secrets.That’s why I’m crouched behind a tapestry at midnight, holding a torchlight, listening to my own heartbeat echo through stone walls older than common sense.The secret passage smells like dust and something faintly metallic. The kind of smell that sticks to your clothes and refuses to leave, no matter how many showers you take. The narrow corridor curves sharply, stones uneven beneath my boots, as if the academy itself has grown tired of being straight and proper centuries ago.I found the passage by accident.Well, “accident” is generous. I followed a draft I found behind one of the library shelves in the restricted archive. A cold breath of air where there shouldn’t be one. One loose stone later, and the wall had slid open like it had been waiting for me all along.That alone should’ve scared me enough to

~IVY~With everything I've faced one would assume I'm invincible. Well, I do like to claim I am invincible, however being hit back to back with disappointment can make a dent on that invincibility.I've taken the risk of entering the archive countless times that I literally don't have to sneak in anymore. I've entered the academy forest, I've entered a secret passageway, I've gone to the outskirts of the academy and yet I've gotten nothing.Oh there's a time I tried to get information out of Miss Altman, to see if she knows about the Ebon Testament and it's location, but ended up in a two hour fifteen minutes lecture on the dangers of poking my nose into forbidden history.I had thought listening to Ethics class was boring, but that was the worst. I was literally fighting to keep my eyes open.All these efforts yet I can't find a single clue on the Ebon Testament or anything related to my family's lineage. It's like the Ebon Testament is a lie, as though there's nothing like the Lyovl

~IVY~The moon is hidden within the clouds, giving a faint glow to the environment. It's like it knows that we're about to do one of the most reckless things we've ever done, and it's helping out in the way it can.I've always been ready to do anything to get my hands on the Ebon Testament, I just didn't think I'd be taking two rivals along.As much as I would've loved to do it alone, I can't. Their help is undeniably welcomed, even if it comes with constantly playing mediator between both of them.I can somewhat understand why Damon will want to help me, Karl however, the instant volunteering threw me off guard for a second. Why would he want to help me? Because he found out about my past and he feels pity? Because we're mates? Because he genuinely wants to?I can't seem to figure it out. Why take this huge risk for someone planning to reject you?Maybe I should accept help for once without thinking of any ulterior motives, after all I desperately need to get this Ebon Testament. Wi

~IVY~There are times when the consequence of your actions dawns on you too late.This is the one of those moments.When Damon, Karl and I made this plan, I was hyped, ready to face any challenge head on. I thought little about the consequences then.But now that I'm about to get caught, warning bells resound in my head. The plan isn't actually foolproof as we thought. We are going to get expelled. I won't get the Ebon Testaments. I'll fail in my mission. The hunters will find me.All thoughts rush through me at once. I'm too overwhelmed to actually think of another plan. Even if I tried, there's no escaping this room. There's no hiding space here, everything is laid out openly. There isn't even a door.Everybody goes still, holding their breath as the footsteps get closer. I close my eyes, biting down my lips.Oh heavens, please let us not be caught. Please let us go scot-free.My prayers are barely heard, but it won't be bad to try this one time. If we're caught, everything will g