All Chapters of FOUR SHADES OF DREY: Chapter 41 - Chapter 50

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EVEN IF SHE CAN NEVER FORGIVE ME FOR IT

CHAPTER 40Dreylen "I said, what if I don't want to do this anymore. What if I want out.""You don't get out." Dreyven's voice drops to something deadly. "We're brothers. We made a plan. You agreed to it. You don't get to back out now just because you caught feelings.""Why not?" I challenge. "This was your revenge plot, Ven. Not mine. I went along with it because you're my brother and I'd do anything for you. But I never wanted to hurt her. I told you that from the beginning.""Then you shouldn't have agreed to participate.""You're right. I shouldn't have." I look at each of my brothers. "But I did. And now I'm in too deep. And I don't know how to get out without destroying either her or us."Drayton sighs. "This is exactly what I was afraid of.""You're falling for her too, aren't you?" I look at him. "Don't pretend you're not. I've seen the way you look at her after training sessions. The way you talk about her progress like it actually matters to you."Drayton doesn't answer, bu

I'D MADE A DECISION

Chapter 41AureliaHalloween fell on a Thursday this year and the entire campus had been buzzing with costume plans and party invitations for the past week.But I barely noticed because all I could think about was Drey and how the past two weeks had been the sweetest, most confusing, most wonderful two weeks of my entire life. We'd been seeing each other almost every day but always in secret and always in places where no one else would find us and there was something thrilling about that secrecy, something that made every moment feel more intense and more precious because it belonged only to us.He never came to my classes and he never showed up in public places where people could see us together and at first I'd thought maybe he was embarrassed to be seen with me but then I realized it wasn't that at all.It was that he wanted to keep what we had private and protected from everyone else's opinions and judgments. When he picked me up it was always on his motorcycle with his helmet c

COULD FEEL HIM BREATHING HARD

Chapter 42Aurelia I was done waiting and done wondering and done letting fear hold me back from something I wanted so badly I could taste it.And tonight when I saw him I was going to kiss him and I didn't care if it was forward or if it wasn't ladylike or if it made me seem desperate because the truth was I was desperate, desperate for him and for his touch and for the feeling of being wanted that I'd only experienced once two weeks ago.I wasn't going to let fear control me anymore and I wasn't going to sit around hoping he'd eventually decide I was worth kissing again because I was worth it and I knew it and I needed him to know it too. The old Aurelia would have waited forever and made herself small and convinced herself she didn't deserve to ask for what she wanted but the new Aurelia, the one Drey had helped me become, knew better and she was going to take what she wanted even if her hands shook while doing it.He'd texted me earlier to meet him at eight tonight and said to d

LIKE SHE'D BURNED ME

Chapter 43DreyvenI'd decided to take tonight's shift because I needed to see for myself what the hell my brothers were losing their minds over. I needed to understand what it was about this girl that had Dreylen writing poetry in his fucking notes app and Drayton coming home with that stupid soft look on his face. She wasn't even my type and from everything I'd seen she was exactly the kind of weak, pathetic, attention-seeking girl I'd always despised and there was no way in hell I'd ever feel anything for her except the contempt she deserved for putting her hands on me that day.I'd told myself I was doing this for strategic reasons and that I needed to assess where we were in the plan and whether my brothers' feelings were going to compromise the endgame.But if I was being honest there was a part of me that was curious and that curiosity pissed me off because I shouldn't care and I shouldn't wonder.And I definitely shouldn't be sitting in this car waiting for her like some lov

THIS HAD NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE

Chapter 44Dreyven "What?" Her voice was small and confused and hurt."I said leave and go back to your dorm, we're done for tonight." I couldn't look at her because if I looked at her I might apologize and I might pull her back into my arms and I might do something I'd regret even more than what I'd already done."Drey, what's wrong and did I do something wrong and I'm sorry if I was too forward but I thought..." She was rambling and I could hear tears in her voice and I hated that it affected me and I hated even more that I wanted to comfort her."Just go, Aurelia." I used her full name deliberately because it created distance and it reminded both of us that whatever had just happened didn't mean anything.She sat there for another moment and I could feel her staring at me and waiting for an explanation I couldn't give, then she opened the door and got out, I heard her footsteps walking away and I finally allowed myself to breathe. The second she was out of sight I slammed my han

I NEEDED HER TO SURVIVE.

Chapter 45DrayvenI'd had plenty of girls try to seduce me over the years and some of them had it been gorgeous.Some had literally stripped naked in front of me and not one of them had managed to get a reaction like this, but one kiss from Aurelia and suddenly my body was betraying me in ways I didn't know were possible."What the fuck," I muttered to my traitorous dick but it didn't have an answer.I stumbled into the bathroom and turned the shower on to the highest, coldest setting and stripped off my clothes and stepped under the spray and gasped as the icy water hit my overheated skin. I stood there with my hands braced against the tile, my head bowed and I let the water pound down on me, trying to wash away the memory of her lips and her taste and the way she'd felt in my arms.But it wasn't working because she was burned into my mind now and I didn't know how to make it stop.I'd started this whole thing wanting revenge and wanting to prove that she was nothing special.Wanti

NOTHING WOULD EVER BE THE SAME AGAIN

Chapter 46DreyvenHer fingers threaded through my hair tugging it, and the slight pain sent pleasure shooting straight to my dick. I groaned against her mouth and deepened the kiss even more. She tasted like toothpaste, tears and something uniquely her, and I wanted to memorize every flavor, every texture and every small sound she made when I did something she liked. My hands roamed up under her t-shirt and found bare skin, she gasped and arched into my touch. I realized she wasn't wearing a bra and that knowledge made me growl low in my throat."Drey," she moaned against my lips, hearing my name in that breathy, wanting voice made me lose whatever small amount of control I had left.I picked her up and she wrapped her legs around my waist, carried her to the bed and laid her down, followed her down and covered her body with mine.I kissed her neck, her collarbone and that spot just behind her ear that made her shiver. Her hands were everywhere, tugging at my shirt, running down

SHE'S AVOIDING ME.

Chapter 47DreyvenI sat at the kitchen table with my three brothers staring at me like I'd just announced I was moving to Mars and maybe that would have been easier than what I was about to do.But I'd made up my mind during that cold shower and through the sleepless hours that followed and I knew what needed to happen even if it terrified me. This whole revenge plot had been my idea from the start and I'd been the one who wanted to hurt her and I'd been the one who convinced my brothers to go along with it and now I was going to be the one to end it before we destroyed her completely."I'm going to tell her," I said and my voice was steady even though my hands were shaking under the table. "I'm going to tell her everything and I'm going to do it today because we can't keep doing this and I can't keep lying to her and I especially can't keep watching you two fall deeper while knowing how badly this is going to end.""Ven, are you sure about this?" Drayton asked and he looked worrie

SOMEHOW START TO HEAL

Chapter 48Drayven "She doesn't skip classes," Drayton added. "In all the weeks I've been training her she's never once missed a workout or been late to anything, so if she wasn't there it's because she saw you and didn't want to talk to you.""This is getting worse," I said and started pacing because I couldn't stand still when I felt like this. "She's angry and hurt and avoiding me and meanwhile we're all still lying to her and we need to fix this now before it gets even more fucked up.""Then we need to sort this out," Dreylen said and he stood up and looked at Drayton and Dreyden. "All of us need to figure out what we're doing because our feelings are involved now and if we keep going with the original plan we're going to destroy her and ourselves in the process.""I'm the one who's going to tell her," I insisted. "I started this and I'm going to end it and you three need to let me do this my way."They all looked at each other and I could see them having some kind of silent co

FAR MORE GONE

Chapter 49DreyvenShe turned around slowly and I watched her expression change in real time like watching storm clouds gather across a clear sky.First there was surprise in her wide eyes like she couldn't believe I was actually standing there, then shock as she processed that it was really me and not some figment of her imagination.Then pain that made her face crumple for just a second before she caught herself, and finally anger that hardened her features and made her jaw clench and her hands ball into fists at her sides."No," she said and her voice was sharp and final and she started walking past me like I was nothing, like I didn't exist, like these past two weeks of me trying desperately to reach her meant absolutely nothing."Ari, please," I said and reached out without thinking and caught her wrist gently, she stopped and looked down at where my hand was touching her skin and I could see her debating whether to pull away or let me speak."Let go of me," she said but her voic

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