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“Mum, just stop this, please. Stop what you're doing.” I cried out, but my mum wasn't listening to me at all. She was too mad, her face red and her eyes sharp. She turned to Leon and pointed at him like he was the worst thing ever.“You need to stay away from my son, forever.” she said, her voice loud and shaky. “My son has made it clear he didn't want to be in this situation with you, but you keep making things difficult for him.” She looked at me then, her eyes soft but demanding. “Tell him, Ronan. Tell him you want him to leave and come back to us. He can't give you the love that you want, Ronan. He won't give it to you, and in the long run, you'll only suffer.”I stared at Leon. God, how I loved this man so much. I loved him with everything I had, no doubt about it. But my mum was right about something. Leon didn't need me in his life. Why? Because I'd put him in more trouble with his dad, and I didn't want that. Over my own happiness, I wanted Leon to be safe. I wanted nothing ba

Leon’s POVRonan's words kept playing in my head over and over again. I took a big swig of the whiskey in my glass and I didn't even know how many bottles I'd gone through by now. I was so tired, both in my head and in my body. I just wanted this drink to wash away everything I felt. I couldn't sleep, no matter how hard I tried and I kept telling myself I didn't know why, but deep down, I knew, I knew that it was because of him, Ronan.It was probably around 2 a.m, the worst time to be drinking like this. But I'd gotten to a point where I didn't give a damn. The way I was raised, it wasn't right to drink by this time. Hell, my dad thought it wasn't right for us to drink at all. My dad tried to raise me and Kael to be the best sons and decent guys but we weren't even close to being decent. Kael was bad, real bad. And me? I was just as messed up. There was this deep secret between us. It ate at me, especially since Ronan came into my life. I started feeling guilty about stuff I used to

Leon’s POVAll I needed right now was a way out of this mess of a marriage I was in. It was all fucked up and I had to fix it without starting a war between her family and mine. My dad was a huge problem on his own. He was powerful and scary as hell. Kael was safe from him for the moment, but if shit went south, I'd be the one he came after and would be blamed for everything.I couldn't forget Ronan was also a boy, a man. If I tried to claim him as mine on my island, my dad would find out because there’s no way I could hide it from him forever.I couldn't even be open about us without giving Dad a reason to go after him. He could set Ronan up easily, get him killed or make him vanish. My dad had that kind of power and connections everywhere. He had money that bought silence and bodies. I had to be smart in everything I would be doing concerning me and Ronan. I had to be very careful and think about every step before I carried them out. There was so much shit to handle and obstacles w

Lara’s POVMy mum shook her head slowly, her face all sad and lined with worry. The lines around her eyes were deeper than yesterday. “I don't know, sweetie but maybe you could talk to him since the both of you have become close since he came back. You’re literally closer than me and him right now. He might open up to you and tell you what's eating at him inside.”I nodded, closing my eyes for a second, the weight of it all pressing on my chest. “Okay, Mum. I'll do it right now, i’ll talk to Ronan but please, stop stressing so much. You're going to make yourself sick. Everything's going to be okay, I promise.” I pulled her into a hug again. She felt small in my arms, her shoulders tense but I held on till she relaxed a little, then let go. “Ronan's not in his room, so he's probably in the living room watching something. I'll go and find him. But you should go and rest and also, don’t worry about anything, okay?”I gave her a stern look, like she was a kid, and she managed a small sm

Ronan's POVI fought hard to drag myself out of bed that morning because it was Christmas day, yeah and because it was supposed to be full of joy and fun but my body felt heavy, like there were heavy weights on my limbs. I could hear everyone downstairs, their footsteps thumping, their voices chatting low and their laughs here and there. My mum's voice sounded high and excited, as she talked to one of our neighbours at the door but I didn't need to be told that it was all fake. There would be a lot of fake smiles here and there from a lot of people this christmas and honestly, I wasn’t ready to face that.The smell of breakfast wafted up my nose, tempting me to go downstairs but all I just wanted to burrow under the covers and hide from everyone and pretend the world's not spinning without Leon in my life. My chest ached thinking of him, a dull throb that never quit.There was no way I could stay holed up in my room forever, though, because my mum would soon come knocking on my doo