Semua Bab A Life Without Gratitude: Bab 1 - Bab 10

The beeping is what I notice first. Steady. Mechanical. Each tone marks another second I'm still breathing—though I'm not sure why I'm bothering.My hospital room smells like disinfectant and dying flowers. The bouquet on the windowsill is from Damien, delivered by his assistant three days ago. He hasn't visited. The flowers are wilting, brown edges curling inward like they're trying to escape their own decay. I know the feeling."The doctor said it could be any time now," Mother's voice cuts through the haze. She's speaking to someone in the hallway, just outside my door. Her tone is the same one she uses when discussing grocery lists. Practical. Detached.I try to turn my head toward the sound, but my body feels like it belongs to someone else. The morphine makes everything soft and distant, like I'm watching my life through frosted glass."Did he say how long?" That's Father. Always concerned with timelines. Schedules. When things will be finished so he can move on to what's next."

The café is closing when Father tells me about Damien Wolfe.I'm wiping down the last table, my back aching from a twelve-hour shift, when Father appears in the doorway. He never comes to the café after hours. The fact that he's here at all makes my stomach knot with anxiety."We need to talk," he says, not bothering with pleasantries. "About your future."I set down the dishrag, trying to read his expression. Six years of working here—six years since he pulled me from school—and I still can't predict what he wants from me. "What about it?""There's a man. Damien Wolfe. Very successful—owns a commercial real estate development company. He's looking for a wife."The words don't register at first. I stare at him, waiting for the punchline. "I'm sorry, what?""His father and I have been in discussions. It's a good match. Very good for the family.""A match?" My voice sounds distant, like it's coming from someone else. "You're... arranging a marriage? This isn't the nineteenth century, Fa

The first time Elena asks for money after my marriage, I've been Mrs. Damien Wolfe for exactly three weeks.She shows up at the penthouse unannounced, letting herself in with the key I didn't know she had. I'm in the kitchen trying to figure out the espresso machine—Damien mentioned preferring his coffee a certain way, and I'm still foolish enough to think small gestures might matter—when I hear her voice."Claire! Oh my God, this place is insane."I turn to find Elena wandering through the living room, running her fingers over furniture that costs more than a car. She's wearing the leather jacket I wanted last year, the one I couldn't afford even on sale. On her, it looks effortless. On me, it would have looked like I was trying too hard."Elena." I set down the espresso cup. "How did you get in?""Mom gave me a key. She said you wouldn't mind." She flops onto the white sofa—the one Damien specifically said cost twelve thousand dollars and should be treated accordingly. "This is amaz

Five years of marriage, and I've learned to measure my life in silences.The silence when Damien comes home and walks past me without speaking. The silence of separate bedrooms, separate lives, separate existences under the same roof. The silence of charity galas where I smile on his arm and he doesn't look at me once. The silence after I say "good morning" and he doesn't respond.I've gotten good at silence. At being quiet, being small, being invisible.But tonight, in our fifth year of marriage, I break it."I want a divorce."We're in the living room—a rare shared space moment. Damien is reviewing contracts, I'm pretending to read a book I haven't turned the page of in twenty minutes. The words come out calm, rehearsed. I've practiced them for months.He doesn't look up. "No."Just that. No explanation. No discussion. Just a flat refusal like I've asked for something unreasonable."Damien, I'm serious.""So am I." He finally meets my eyes, his expression unchanged. "The answer is n

I wake up on the hotel room floor, disoriented and shivering.My phone is ringing—has been ringing, I realize, for a while. The screen shows twelve missed calls from the hospital. I fumble to answer it."Mrs. Wolfe, you missed your follow-up appointment yesterday." The nurse sounds concerned but professional. "We need those additional test results. When can you come in?"Yesterday. I've lost a day. The last thing I remember clearly is lying on the bed, wishing I could go back and change everything. I must have fallen asleep. Or passed out. The distinction seems less important than it should."I'll come today," I manage."Are you feeling alright? You sound—""I'm fine. I'll be there in an hour."I hang up before she can ask more questions.It takes me twenty minutes to get from the floor to the shower. My legs shake. My vision blurs at the edges. When I look in the mirror, I barely recognize myself—skin gray, eyes sunken, cheekbones too sharp.I look like I'm dying.Because I am.---T