Leander POVFour months, that is how long I have been back. It has been four months of work, four months of control, and four months of pretending nothing is wrong, and still, I cannot settle. I lie awake most nights staring at the ceiling and watching shadows shift slowly across the room. Sleep comes in fragments now; I get three hours if I am lucky, sometimes less, and sometimes none at all.When sleep does come, it does not bring rest; instead, it brings him, or rather, the absence of him. The dream starts the same way every time with the sound of ocean waves. The sound is steady, rhythmic, and endless. It should be calming, but it isn't, because it feels like something I lost.There is laughter too, soft, warm, and close enough that I should recognize it, but I don't, and that is the worst part. I am standing somewhere with sand beneath my feet and wind against my skin, and I am not alone. Someone is there with me, and I can feel them as their presence wraps around me like somethi
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