“I am processing,” she said, her voice muffled by his shirt. “Give me a second.” He waited. His arms stayed where they were, supporting her weight. But she could feel it—his chest starting to shake. It wasn’t a cough. It was a laugh. A deep, silent vibration rattling his entire ribcage. She lifted her head, ready to fight for her dignity. He was holding it together with everything he had, and he was losing. His face was flushing, his jaw was clamped shut, and his eyes were watering. “Raiyan. Don’t.” He pressed his lips together. A sound escaped him—a strangled, high-pitched wheeze. “I am warning you,” she said, eyes narrowing. “Do not do it.” His shoulders betrayed him. Then, he broke. He didn’t just laugh; he folded. He tipped his head back, his whole body shaking with the force of it. She saw it then for the very first time. It was magnetic. It was loud, helpless, and completely, devastatingly his. She forgot to let go. Her hands were still fisted in his collar—they
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