ÉlianorIt's three o'clock in the morning. I am awake, eyes wide open in the dark, staring at the ceiling I cannot see. The alarm clock reads 03:17 in red digits dancing in the darkness. Outside, the snow has stopped falling, giving way to a muffled, almost unreal silence.I think of him.Of that night, six years ago.Why now? Why tonight? Why are these memories surfacing after so many years of burial?Because he is here. Because he came back. Because he loves me.I close my eyes, and the images come, fragmented, disordered, like a film whose reels have been mixed up.London. A bar. I am alone at the counter, drunk, desperate. I fled that city, those people, that life. I left everything, abandoned everything behind me. I don't know where to go, I don't know what to do. I drink to forget, to drown the shame, the rage, the pain.That night, he said to me:"You are beautiful," he said at one point.I laugh, a bitter, broken laugh."I'm ugly on the inside.""No one is ugly on the inside.
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