Alex I should have walked away the moment he said it, like actually turned around and left and saved myself the embarrassment of standing there like an idiot while he looked at me like I was the problem, but no, of course not, I stayed, because apparently I enjoy suffering now or something, because out of everything he could have said, everything, that was what he chose, and it just sat there between us, heavy and stupid and impossible to ignore. “I’m not gay.” There was a pause right after, not the usual kind where I jump in with something smart or rude just to keep things moving, not the kind where he shuts down and pretends he has nothing to say, just silence that actually meant something, and for once I didn’t fill it, I just stared at him like maybe if I looked long enough it would start making sense. It didn’t. I blinked, frowned a little, then said, “That’s… not what this is about,” because it wasn’t, or at least I didn’t think it was, and the way his expression shifted, like
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