Todos os capítulos de BEHIND THE MASK (EROTIC): Capítulo 1 - Capítulo 7

“Shame is a collar they give you young. I didn’t know how good it would feel to take it off.”I remember the first time I had sex.I didn’t want it.And James didn’t care.He moaned in pleasure while I cried beneath him.I also remember my mother’s words about sex:“It’s not for you to enjoy,” she said. “Just make sure your husband is satisfied.”I nodded. But something in me wanted to scream.My name is Mariam. I grew up in a deeply religious home. My mother never questioned my father. She obeyed, submitted, stayed silent. I was raised to follow her footsteps.But deep down, I hated it.I craved freedom. I despised the idea of living my entire life under someone else’s control.There was always something different in me. I knew it.I had wet dreams I was too scared to talk about. I would wake up soaked, heart racing, filled with guilt and shame. I didn’t understand what my body was trying to tell me. I only knew it felt… good.Sometimes, while shaving my pussy, I would run my fingers

Scared I was exposed. I got up quickly and hid away the package I got and went to freshen up. I was panicking so bad, thinking: who was this person? Who saw me? I had a lot of questions, and I needed to uncover this secret. Nobody was supposed to find out about my secret.James got back. I kept on waiting for him to talk about it, but he never did. Didn’t James find out? What if he drove me out of the house? Would I be happy? On second thought, I’d be homeless because I’m sure even my parents wouldn’t want me. I know my family.I had to protect my secret at all costs. I also thought about telling James myself, all I’ve been up to these past few days, but I decided against it. But none of my imagination came to pass, and we ate silently. I quickly left the dining room because I needed to figure this out.I texted Jessica and asked if she got me any package. She said no, then asked if I got anything and wanted to know the content of the package. But I couldn’t bring myself to tell her,

I wanted things to work between James and I. I wanted so badly for him to see me as more than just a woman he married, more than just a possession he could bring out, decorate, fuck, and tuck away when he was done. Maybe if he ever looked at me like I mattered, like I had desires too, I wouldn't have fallen this far.Maybe I wouldn’t have ended up in some stranger’s lap, soaking my panties, a man’s hand down there, and my moans swallowed by music.But I was here. And James was already close. Jessica ran up to him, causing a distraction just as the man slipped his hand out. I breathed a sigh of relief.I got up and left the table. I walked straight to the bathroom. I felt James’s eyes on me till I stepped inside, and then my knees buckled. I needed to think. I needed to breathe. What just happened was so close. Too close. And Jessica coming at that exact time... was it just coincidence?I didn’t know who to trust anymore. I was alone. I couldn’t confide in anybody. I hated this so muc

After it was over, I lay there stunned, the taste of guilt ,I could taste her on my tongue, even as she moaned and my juice still on my body I knew I had cross another boundary of mine I looked at her face ,what would she say.I wondered if the masked man had watch this did it make him hard .What the fuck did I just do? Reality hit me hard as text came in from the church women group.I stared at the ceiling, panting, exhausted . My body relaxed in some kind of way , but my heart is twisted. I had just let a woman lick my pussy and not just any woman Jessica and I had moaned, begged, had multiple orgasm. I wanted to say it didn’t mean anything, that it was just a task. That it was for him. But I couldn’t deny how my body had opened up, how Jessica’s tongue made me lose control.I got up without a word. My knees are still shaky, my lips swollen. I didn’t even look at her anymore .“Mariam…” Jessica whispered, still breathless on the bed. Her voice was soft, needy. “I have never wanted a