Mag-log inJames strolled over to my window as if pulled to a stop. "Hey", he saidNo questions--not now, I thought. So, I stepped out of the car and walked into the house without a word.I hadn't even made it to the stairs before I heard the door shut behind me, and then his voice."Stop, Miriam", he ordered."What now?", I turned to himA wicked smile crept across his face, like a cat with a secret."What was that with Adrian?" he asked.My voice laced with fake confusion, " Sorry, dear, I'm lost"."Cut the act, Miriam", he said, his voice firm"I'm tired, I need to go inside, I said, hoping that he would back off.He held me in place. " You are not going anywhere until you talk to me. I've had enough of your lies."You're hurting me", I said, struggling against his hold.He loosened his grip ."Oh, sorry. I didn't mean to, he said, then he smiled awkwardly ."You're not going anywhere until you understand that I'm in control"The way he looked at me was suffocating, like he owned me"I do
"Yes, yes", I shouted.I threw off the covers and leaped out of bed.I did it.I actually did.The night before, I had spent hours applying for jobs and updating my Job profile. I was so nervous but it paid off.I had to double-check on the laptop screen, and I couldn't be happier. The job details, the interview date, everything—it was real.As if grinning from ear to ear as I replayed the events from hours ago wasn't enough, the universe decided to hit me with a job offer."Hey, Bestie. We did it, thanks for having my back" I said, kissing the journal I dropped on the bed.My feet barely touched the ground as I danced over to the closet, to get ready to take on the day.I reached for the doorknob, ready to head downstairs but just as I was about to step out, James walked into my room, fuming.What now?It was past 9am, and he was still lounging around the house."I did a check-in around midnight, and your room was empty, he said, his tone casual but curious.What?Is he that paranoid
I knew I had to make lemonade with the lemons, but right now, I just wanted to throw the lemons away.Because, lifting my spirit had become a full-time job, but I wasn't actually getting any job done.Something had to change, immediately.I stood up from the bed, wiped the dried tears off my cheeks, and reached for the laptop that'd be my ticket to new beginnings."Cheers to finding me", I said, as I booted up the system.My fingers walked across the keyboard, as I opened different job portals and filled out applications.The available jobs weren't high-paying ones because I didn't have the educational qualifications, but I didn't mind. My bank account was full, but my mind, empty.So, Yeah.The applications were done, and I was ready to unwind. I showered, changed into a light and revealing dress, and headed downstairs to grab a cold drink from the fridge.I glanced up at the clock in the hallway and raised an eyebrow, "12:47am, already?"Wow, time really flies when you're productive
The rest of the day flew by in a blur. After Adrian broke the news of leaving to me, I trudged back into my room, and that was the last thing I knew.I fell into a deep sleep.Our conversation replayed in my head and it broke me so bad. The crash was brutal, it was a harsh reality check from the high I was riding.My journal lay open on the stool beside the bed, a trusted confidant waiting to absorb my thoughts."Dear Journal", I wrote," I feel so lost. Adrian's leaving, and I feel really bad about it when I'm not supposed to. Although, a fleeting and unassuming memory, its quiet beauty continues to haunt me. It was undeniably a real connection, and for a moment, I was lost in it. But guess what? I'm alone again. I'm left with just my thoughts, and they are not good company".I paused, waiting for answers that wouldn't come, empty words, hollow promises. I sighed and continued to write."On one hand, I'm grateful to be a rich housewife despite the hurdles and hurt that's packaged wit
Just before I reached the bottom step, I halted to smooth out my dress.I chose a stretchy fabric, which hugged my curves and accentuated my features. With my hair styled and a light touch of makeup, I looked like a supermodel.Satisfied with the final touches, I headed downstairs.Our eyes met as he looked up from the TV screen. For a moment, he just stared at me."Hey", he said "Hey", I replied shyly, despite the casual setting.He looked around and whispered, "You look beautiful, wifey.I felt the sincerity in his voice like a gentle touch. And the way he called my name? Very demure, very inviting."Thanks ", I replied.He gestured for me to follow him and as we entered the kitchen, the sight of the meal he had prepared took my breath away.He was so thoughtful, so sweet."I made you all these, would you like a plate?", he asked.I nodded and settled into one of the dining chairs.As he moved and dished the food, I thought of how sexy it was to have him in my kitchen. It fe
"I know you're in there, open the door".The sound of Jame's persistent knock and voice behind the door jolted me awake. It was 7:14am in the morning and I felt so exhausted that I couldn't muster the energy to respond.After I met with Darius the other day, I grabbed a bite to eat and retreated to my room.I didn't even remember falling asleep, but apparently, I had been out cold until morning."I still need to sleep", I said, rubbing the grit from my eyes.He didn't stop knocking, so I stumbled towards the door.The door swung open, and he stepped inside. " Why didn't you open the door last night?"Last night?I didn't know he was at the door."You know exactly why", I said His eyes narrowed slightly. " No, I don't.I rolled my mental eyes at the familiar pattern--- The interrogation."Well, I didn't wanna talk", I replied curtly.He stood there, waiting expectantly "Are you ready for me now that you're awake?"."You do the talking, I'm listening, I said, crossing my arms.His ey
I stared at the text. “Don’t be late.”I knew I didn’t want to find out what my lateness would cost, so I got dressed and left without the driver. I boarded a cab and went there.I was scared and uncertain, but I still went. I got there and walked into the apartment in this lonely off-town place. A
I hurriedly got up, but the person had already left. I was wondering who could have seen me. Nobody should ever see me like this. I went to bed and eventually managed to sleep.The next day, I saw Jessica, and I kept looking at her face, hoping to see something. Anything. Who was in the house with
I wanted things to work between James and I. I wanted so badly for him to see me as more than just a woman he married, more than just a possession he could bring out, decorate, fuck, and tuck away when he was done. Maybe if he ever looked at me like I mattered, like I had desires too, I wouldn't h
“Shame is a collar they give you young. I didn’t know how good it would feel to take it off.”I remember the first time I had sex.I didn’t want it.And James didn’t care.He moaned in pleasure while I cried beneath him.I also remember my mother’s words about sex:“It’s not for you to enjoy,” she







