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I sat on the edge of the bed with my ruined throat and my shaking hands and I made myself think, because thinking was the only thing my father ever respected and it is the one habit of his I kept.Two roads out of this.I could keep running south. Find some forgotten stretch of country far from Riven and far from anyone who knew my face, buy or bleed my way into a pack to call my own, and raise the boy. Years of it. Years of feeding him and training him and waiting for him to grow into the weapon I needed, all the while sleeping under the same roof as a thing that had already put me on the floor by accident. Hoping, every one of those years, that when he was finally old enough to be of use he would not simply decide to be rid of me. A boy raised to break kings does not stay a good son forever. I know that better than most. I buried my own father's expectations and I would have buried the man too if someone had not done it for me.So. Years of risk, for a weapon that might turn in my h

RivenShe had fallen asleep against the side of the carriage, and I let myself watch her, because it was the only time I was allowed to.Awake, she guarded herself around me. I had earned that and I did not resent it. But asleep, with the grey light coming through the gap in the curtain and the chariot rocking slow beneath us, the guard came down, and I could look at her the way I had wanted to look at her for weeks and never had the right. A loose strand of hair had fallen across her cheek. Her hands were curled loose in her lap, the same hands that had gripped my arm in the dark last night and would not let me leave. I did not move to touch her. I only looked, and I let the looking hurt.I did this to her. ME! That was the thought that would not leave me, no matter how many miles went under us. Every hard line I had ever carried, I carried because the world put it there, my father’s fists, the wars, the throne. But the fear in her, the way she braced before she let herself trust an

The room was smaller than I remember it, all these years, in the place inside me where I store the things I cannot put down.Memory does that. It builds the bad rooms tall. For eight years the tailor's quarters had stood in me as a cathedral of the worst night of two lives, and here was the truth of it, a low cramped chamber with a sloped roof and a cold hearth and three narrow cots, and bolts of cloth stacked against the wall catching the thin light from the corridor. Smaller. Meaner. Exactly the same.I stood just inside the door with Rune sleeping against my chest and I let my eyes go around it.Someone lived here now. Two someones. There were shawls on pegs that were not ours, a comb, a little clay cup, the small sad hoard of women who are given almost nothing and guard it close. New girls. There are always new girls. Ironclaw eats them and sends home what is left and takes in more, and these two were out somewhere in the night doing whatever Orion's house required of them at this

She did not respond.The guards’ boots were barely gone down the corridor before she set her water jug on the floor, slowly, and reached for the broom leaning by the cold hearth, and turned it so the handle pointed at me like a spear.“Stay there,” she said. “Don’t come closer. Whatever you’ve got to say, you say it from right where you are.”I stayed. I kept my hands open where she could see them, and I stayed down against the wall with the child a quiet weight inside my cloak, and I let her have her broom and her six feet of floor.“Thank you,” I said. “For that. You didn’t have to.”“I didn’t do it for you.” Steadier now the guards were gone. Steadier than a girl her age had any business being. “Don’t go thinking I’m kind. I’m not. I stopped being kind in this house a long time ago.” Her knuckles were white on the broom. “I did it because of what you’ve got under that cloak. I saw the foot. Before you covered it up, I saw it. That’s the only reason the guards aren’t standing on top

LioraThe fight started over a river crossing and became something else. Their fights always did.We had been pushing north for four days, the horses half dead under us, every hour of daylight burned on the road and most of the dark hours too, because Riven would not stop and I would not ask him to. Somewhere ahead of us Kaelen had my son. Somewhere ahead of us a thing the bird could not fully name was waiting to be done to Mael, and that thought sat in me colder than the wind and let me sleep no more than an hour at a stretch.So we were all of us worn down to the raw wood when Stiles and Riven set to it at the ford.It was nothing. A disagreement over which bank to follow, Stiles pointing one way out of a tracker's instinct, Riven overruling him flat, king over man, no reason offered, and I watched Stiles' jaw go tight and I knew, I already knew, that four days of swallowing it was about to come up."You don't have to be right," Stiles said. "You just have to be loudest. That's king