Todos los capítulos de His To Have And To Loathe: Capítulo 71 - Capítulo 80

Sophia’s POV“Loving you was a mistake.” His words hit like a sledgehammer to the chest. I couldn't believe he had just said that. It was almost as though I had killed Petrov myself.“You don't mean that,” I whispered, hoping he would take it back.And for a second, I saw a flash of regret in his eyes, or maybe I was just desperate so that I could hold on to something.“I mean it.”He was cold, and his body was as limp as his heart felt. This was all my fault; I had fallen for the man who ruined my life. I mean, what sane person would do that? Now I was standing in front of him, begging him to love me.I was pathetic, and he knew it. The tears gushed out of my eyes, but I couldn't let him see them.I shoved two of my hands against his hard chest, barely leaving an impact. I grunted as I tried again, this time harder, and he moved an inch.Before I could do it again, he wrapped his arms around me.“Let me go,” I yelled as I flailed about in his hands. “Let me go, Nikolai.”He did; he

Nikolai’s POVI thought I wouldn't feel anything. But I had made the biggest mistake of my life, and I knew it before it was over.There was nothing to it; the only thing that was between Petra and me was the alcohol, the anger, and the desperate need to become someone I clearly wasn't anymore.I rolled out of the bed in the private room above the club, disgusted with myself. Petra shifted, right before her eyes opened wide.I hurriedly grabbed my pants from the floor. All I could think about was Sophia. Fuck! I messed up big this time. I couldn't lose her, not like this.“What are you doing?” Petra sat up on the bed.“Leaving,” I said without looking at her.“Seriously?” She asked, “After the night we just had?”I had no words left to say. I had done the unthinkable, and my head was finally clearing up, but not enough to understand the gravity of what I had just done.I spent weeks convincing myself that loving Sophia had made me weak, that loving her was dangerous. And now, I had go

Nikolai’s POVFuck! Petra had taken a picture while I slept. I looked up at Sophia, there was no explanation in the world that could possibly make this make sense.She trembled right before me; her lips quivered as she said, “I hope she was worth it.”For fucks sake. Of course she wasn't. “No,” I said immediately.A tear rolled down her cheek, and she wiped it away quickly. “Did you sleep with her?” Her words trembled the same way her body did.I took a step closer; I wanted to hold her, but she took a step back.I opened my mouth to explain, but I had no words to say. What could I say? That it was a mistake? Yes, it was the worst mistake of my life, but that wouldn't make things better, not for Sophia.I didn't understand why I had done it, so how was I going to explain it to her? Would I chalk it all up to pain, being drunk, scared, or angry? The truth was, none of those things really mattered right now; all that mattered to me was Sophia.Sophia laughed through the tears, “Say some

Sophia’s POVIt had been a couple of days since I left Nikolai’s house. I was finally free, but I felt so far from it.My father was back home, but it wasn't my home anymore, and I wasn't sure I could trust him after all he had done and his involvement with Nikolai, so I had been crashing at Amaya’s.She was my roommate in college, and the closest thing I had to a best friend. I had been sleeping on her couch ever since I left Nikolai, and I had no idea what to do next.I had never felt a heartbreak so physically and mentally draining. I darted off the couch, dashing to the toilet for the second time this morning.I hauled myself over the toilet seat, throwing up loudly, and feeling sick to my stomach.“Okay, that's it.” Amaya’s voice came from behind the bathroom door. “I'm coming in.”“Don’t,” I yelled weakly, but she came in anyway.I flushed the toilet as I sat weakly against the floor beside it. I had taken Nikolai’s shirt with me by accident, and I had been sleeping in it for th

Nikolai’s POVThe entire house felt too quiet, and I couldn't stand it. It had been days since Sophia left, yet somehow she was everywhere. There were things she had left behind, like her shampoo in our bathroom, and the stupid pink mug she loved to use stayed intact on the nightstand. She had taken Loki, though; that was how I knew she was gone, and I had let her go.My jaw tightened as memories of that day flooded back in. I should have fought harder; I don't know. Made her stay? I guess I had fucking Petra to thank for all this.I had drowned myself in work. Moretti lost two shipments in three days. One of his warehouses mysteriously burned down. I got rid of three men from my organization suspected of being in cahoots with Moretti.Jack had been in my ear about how reckless I was being, but it was just the tip of the iceberg. I was committed to destroying Moretti now more than ever. And I could do it without worrying about Sophia’s safety, or so I thought.I was lost in thought w