AthenaI told my father on a Sunday, over the phone, with Amara sitting on my feet.I'd rehearsed it. Three different openings, one funny, one careful, one that was basically just the word pregnant said very fast. In the end I said "Father, I need you to sit down" and heard him go still on the other end."Is it Amara?""No. No, she's fine, she's right here eating my sock.""I'm not eating it," Amara said. "I'm chewing it a little.""Athena.""I'm pregnant." It came out smaller than I meant it to.Nothing. Not a breath. For maybe five seconds I thought the line had dropped, and then I heard a sound I'd never heard from my father in twenty eight years. It was wet and cracked in the middle, like something he'd kept shut for a very long time had finally been pried open."Father?""I'm here." His voice was thick. "I'm here, angel. Give me a moment."I gave him several. Amara looked up at me with her whole face scrunched, mouthing is grandfather sad, and I shook my head and mouthed no, and
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