Every evening, after the children went to sleep, we sat on the fire escape. On Monday, we talked. On Tuesday, we mostly sat in silence. On Wednesday, she told me about a painting she was working on, its shape, not the image, but the atmosphere she wanted it to have. I listened the way she did, completely, without saying anything. She wasn't waiting for a response. She needed someone to hear her say it out loud. By Thursday, she was at the studio in the mornings. I watched the children. I watched them well enough that the studio door stayed closed for two hours on Thursday and three hours on Friday, and when she came out on Friday, there was paint on her left hand and that particular expression she had when something had worked. Friday evening, on the fire escape, she said, "I can feel it again." I looked at her. "It's mine," she said. "The story. The work. All of it." She looked at the street. "I didn't feel that way for a while. After the documentary company. It came back.
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