Back in the room, Julian said nothing more. He walked me to my door, his hand pausing a moment on the handle, then said, "Goodnight." The door closed.I stood in the hall, looking at his shut door for a long time.Then I went back, locked up, and turned off the light. The room held only the moonlight outside and the lighthouse's beam, turning round and round in the distance. I sat on the edge of the bed, took out my phone, and opened the front camera.The frame was empty. Only the wall behind me, the pillow beside me. No me.I set the phone down and looked up at the mirror on the vanity. A woman was plainly reflected in it. I could see myself in a mirror, and still I couldn't leave behind a single proper photo for a funeral.On some impulse I tapped into Julian's profile. His pinned banner photo was still the photo of us taken at Acadia. I was in an orange windbreaker, my hair blown across my face. He stood beside me, head tilted toward me, a smile at the corner of his mouth.Three yea
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