Todos os capítulos de The Luna I Was Never Allowed To Be: Capítulo 11 - Capítulo 20

ELARAI looked at the sealed letter in Cassian's hand and then at Cassian. "Why does he want to see you?"My voice came out quieter than I intended and Cassian looked at me."I don't know."My fingers curled together. "Is he..."I stopped because the words I was about to say suddenly felt childish.Cassian waited patiently till I was able to put the words together and ask what I wanted to ask. "Is he coming to take me back?"The question sounded even smaller once it was spoken aloud."Or..."I paused and swallowed."...is he going to say I abandoned the pack or accuse me of something?"The room felt colder and the silence afterwards was really deafening. I hated that part of me still expected trouble whenever Ronan's name appeared.Cassian folded the letter without opening it and then he walked toward me.He stopped close enough that I could speak without raising my voice"You don't have to worry about this."His words were steady as he spoke, "As long as you're under my protectio

ELARAI spent the rest of the day in the room after leaving the garden. Cassian had urgent things to do so after he left, I went back to my room. I spent the rest of the night reading the rest of my mother's journal while imagining scenarios in my head. It gave me this different kind of joy and satisfaction, I could read them repeatedly all day. I slept off while admiring one of the journals that was filled with my mother's drawing and by the time I opened my eyes, it was already morning. I stared at the ceiling for a long moment before turning my head toward the bedside table.The journal was still there, I had fallen asleep with my hand resting on it.For years, I had hidden everything that mattered to me like letters, small gifts and hope.I always tucked them away before someone could take them or laugh at them.This morning, I didn't reach to hide the journal.Instead, I picked it up carefully and ran my fingers across the worn leather."My little Lyra," I whispered.The wor

ELARA I stayed where I was while observing everything my eyes landed on. The training yard was alive with so much movements, none of it made me flinch anymore.A few days ago, the sound would have pulled my heart into my throat.Today, I watched not with fear but with something that surprised me.It was envy.The men in the yard moved with confidence, they trusted their own bodies, they knew how to stand, fall and how to protect themselves.I wondered what that felt like. “I've been looking for you."Cassian's voice came from behind me and I turned.“I told you that I was going to be back soon,” He said and I shrugged. “Well, you already found me already.” I said with a small smile. He scoffed while I laughed lightly. He walked over and followed my gaze toward the training yard."They've been at it since sunrise."I nodded. "I can see why."We stood in silence for a while and then I quietly said,"I want to learn."He smiled. "I thought you might to. Don't worry, I'll ask the tu

ELARA Surprisingly, it was Vievienne, I had expected the person to be Cassian. She stepped inside and then smiled brightly. "Oh."She looked between us. "I was looking for Cassian."Lady Miriam sighed. "Unfortunately, you found work instead."Vivienne laughed. "I see you've already buried the princess under law books."Lady Miriam sniffed. "Someone has to."Vivienne walked over and glanced at the stack beside me."Why so many books? “I've only survived half of them."She grinned. "Poor thing, I almost feel sorry for you.""I've heard that today already."She laughed again. "You really are becoming part of this palace."Another knock came and this time, it was Cassian. His face lit up when he saw her, I guess he didn't expect her to reach here already. "You're here already, Vievienne.” Vivienne turned toward him so quickly it almost made me smile.Her whole face brightened naturally like flowers turning toward sunlight."You're finished already?" she asked."Only for a moment.""I

ELARAThe first thing I did when I woke up was reach for the file on my bedside table.It was the same one I'd fallen asleep reading.The early morning sunlight came in through the curtains casting a golden glow in my room but my attention stayed on the papers instead. I read the line that had bothered me the night before and then I read the paragraph before it.I also studied the map attached to it again and still couldn't explain why it felt wrong.One thing I noticed is that the dispute that was going to be resolved at the territorial hearing today was similar to the test question Lady Miriam gave me to answer when we first met each other. A gentle knock came from the door. "Princess?"A maid stepped inside after I answered. “Breakfast is ready.""I'll be there shortly." I said and the maid bowed before leaving.I closed the file carefully and rested my hand on its cover.Today wasn't about proving how clever I was. Cassian had already made that clear and even so, I couldn't sto