Todos os capítulos de The Luna I Was Never Allowed To Be: Capítulo 21 - Capítulo 30

RONAN For several minutes, I simply stared at the Journal. The leather on the journal felt rough when I touched it with my fingers as I started to untie the cord on the journal.The knot, on the cord of the journal came undone easily and I opened up the journal.For some reason, I had imagined the first page would hold battle plans or military orders.Instead, it was a list of things he wanted to work on.He writes things like, grain delivery delayed, stable roof needs repair before winter, replace worn practice swords.I blinked and then turned another page.He writes training schedules, guard rotations and supply requests.All of these were small and ordinary things, I found myself smiling before I realized it. It was actually a sad smile. He always wrote everything down, even the smallest details.I could almost hear him complaining that if he didn't, I would forget half of it. "You worry too much," he used to tell me. "And you don't worry enough," I would answer.He would al

ELARAI waited for Lady Miriam and my brother outside the territorial chamber. The voices that had filled the room only moments ago had faded into quiet conversations as advisers gathered their papers and scribes carried away stacks of records.I held my own notes against my chest.Before today, I had expected to spend the entire hearing listening in silence but instead, people had listened to me.It still didn't feel real as I kept on thinking about it.As Lady Miriam spoke with another adviser, an elderly man approached me."Princess Elara."I looked up quickly, he smiled kindly."You noticed something the rest of us overlooked."This was like the seventh compliment I was hearing after the hearing ended. I wasn't sure what to say and he inclined his head."Thank you."Before I could answer, he walked away and I stood there blinking after him. Another adviser nodded as he passed. "Well observed."A woman carrying a stack of documents smiled politely."I hope you'll attend more he

ELARACassian and I remained where we were for a little while longer.Neither of us felt the need to fill the silence, it was comfortable and peaceful.Eventually, he looked at me.."Are you busy tomorrow?"I smiled faintly. “I have training with Captain Rhys in the morning.""And after that?"I thought for a moment. "I don't think I will be busy afterwards.” "Good."He brushed an invisible speck of dust from his sleeve."I'd like you to come somewhere with me."I tilted my head. "Another hearing?"He smiled in that familiar way that told me he already knew something I didn't."No.""What is it then?""You'll see.""Cassian...""I've been told I'm very good at keeping surprises." He said and I laughed softly."I don't believe whoever told you that.""You shouldn't.""They were lying to it,” "Fine."***The following morning began as most mornings did.Rhys showed me three different ways to break free if someone grabbed my wrist.By the time training ended, I was sweaty, tired and ver

RONANMorning came and I wasn't ready for it. I wasn't sure I had actually slept at all.The candle on my desk had melted completely into a pool of wax during the night. The appointment records I had been reading were still lying on the table exactly where I had left them.I looked at them for a time before taking a slow breath, there was no reason to look at them again.I picked up the pile and moved it to one side of the desk."One problem at a time " I said to myself.The administrative changes were troubling but they weren't the oldest question waiting for an answer.I reached for my cloak, left the office and decided to take a walk before the day's meetings began.I was hoping that walking would calm my mind. It did not work out that way, the walk only gave my thoughts space to drift.The pack house was already up and running by the time I stepped out.I saw servants rushing through the halls with breakfast trays in their hands.Messengers were crossing the courtyard with rolls

RONANThe following morning, I woke with the same uneasy feeling that had followed me through the night.I stayed in bed for a while staring at the ceiling.I had spent the few days trying to convince myself that I was only confused because of grief.My brother had been dead for two months.Two months was nothing. Maybe my memories were simply failing me, maybe guilt was making me question things that had never been wrong in the place.The questions were still there and if anything they only increased. I finally got up and dressed.When I entered my office my eyes went to the locked drawer.The journal and the notebook were inside and I didn't open it.If I wanted to understand what happened that day perhaps I needed to speak to the people who had actually been there—the soldiers.I sat behind my desk and pulled a blank sheet of paper toward me.I started writing names of soldiers, people who had been on the ground and people who had seen things from where they stood off from the saf