All Chapters of Renascence : Chapter 1 - Chapter 10

I sat on the edge of the bed with my back toward Ashley. We were supposed to be at school, but we had ditched the period before lunch. We’d gone to her house, knowing that her parents would only be back at 6 PM.Her fingertips trailed over my unmarked back and I clenched my eyes shut. Ashley and I had been dating for close to two years. She was part of another pack and even though I knew she wasn’t my mate, I still kept seeing her.Things had been off with us for the last two weeks and it made me question my feelings for her. I did love her, but for the time being, it seemed we only got along when we were naked. I wasn’t sure where our relationship was going. Ashley had different ideas for my life than I had.She was pressuring me about life after school. I hadn’t really thought about it. I’d applied to go to university and I’d gotten in. I was going to the University of Alaska in Fairbanks and I’d been accepted into the geosciences department.I wasn’t really sure what the problem be

I returned at dawn and I wasn’t surprised to find Kiran in the kitchen, sitting at the counter, drinking coffee. He didn’t seem surprised when I slid open the sliding doors and walked inside pulling my T-shirt over my head.“Morning,” I said as he looked at me.“You’re not going to school today,” he said.“I’m not?” I asked him.“Today you’re stuck with me,” he said and I smiled.After breakfast, Adara moved to Kiran’s office with her laptop and we headed outside. I followed Kiran to the clearing and he stopped in the middle of it. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. I looked at all our trees surrounding the open area. Kiran had planted trees as every child was born, keeping our traditions alive.“Christian,” he said and I turned to look at him, sadness enveloping me.“What am I supposed to do without you? I’m not an Alpha, I’m not like you. I don’t want you to die,” I said to him.“This might hurt a little,” he said and I looked up as he grabbed me and turned my back against h

It was a week later and I hadn’t gone back to school yet. Letters of condolences had come from everywhere. As the head Alpha of the World Council, Kiran had known a lot of people, and many of them were saddened by his loss.I hadn’t opened any of them and Levi had just shrugged when he arrived at the house and found me burning all the cards and letters in the fireplace. He had called to say that everyone would be at the house tonight as per William’s request.I had declined Levi’s offer to stay with him and Charlotte. I couldn’t leave the house yet. Their scents were still there, Kiran’s scent was strongest in his study and I spent most of my time in there, sleeping on the couch as I struggled with my emotions.I hadn’t gone into their room again, I had just closed the door after their ceremony. Kai came up to me later and gave me a silver chain with Kiran’s wedding ring hanging from it. “He’d want you to have it, think of this as your amulet, something that was his that you can draw

I was slowly going insane. When I felt Kiran’s spirit inside me the night of his funeral, I was so happy to have something of him, but now I realized that this was a curse. A stupid curse and I wasn’t sure how to handle everything that’s been happening to me.It started off slow, the first thing that happened to me of course was that wolf voice in my head. Grayson. He wasn’t a curse though and I felt less lonely in that big house all by myself. I hadn’t mastered keeping him at bay and he pushed through at times and took over, making my eyes blaze a deep blue color as opposed to my light blue ones.The second thing nearly choked the life out of me. I was sitting in class and the next moment it hit me like a tidal wave. Everyone’s emotions came hurtling towards me and I had actually passed out in class. It made me feel physically sick, the anger, the hate, even the love was too much. People’s fears, their anxiety, I felt it all. I could even distinguish which emotion belonged to which s

I woke up as someone pulled me out of my bed by my leg and my head hit the floor hard. The realization that someone was in my house didn’t even register as I just lay there groaning. I was a shell of who I used to be and the fact that I didn’t care should’ve bothered me, but it didn’t. I was pulled up and flung over someone’s shoulder and a few minutes later my back hit the cold grass.“What the fuck,” I murmured.“Shift,” Levi said as I lay there squinting my eyes at the bright sunlight.“I can’t,” I said.“Shift, Christian,” he said again.“I can’t!” I said angrily.“Your wolf left you, didn’t he?” he asked me.I hated how Levi always knew things, hated that he was here, concerned about me. I didn’t want anyone to pity me or worry about me. I hated everyone. I hated life and I hated myself for what I’d become, most of all I hated Grayson for blocking me out, refusing to shift and refusing to talk to me.“Fuck off, Levi,” I said as I tried to stand up and stumbled twice.“Look at you