Amma's Point of ViewThe pain is white, and it lives behind my eyes, and it rises in slow, tidal surges that leave me gasping on the grass like a fish. Every time I think it's passing, something inside me throws itself against my ribs again, hard enough to crack bone.‘Let me out. Let me out. Let me out.’I've never heard her this loud. For five years, she's been a whisper at the bottom of a well. Now she's clawing up through my chest, and I can't tell where she ends and I begin."What did you do to yourself?"His voice cuts through the white. I open my eyes. He's kneeling over me, his face inches from mine, and his hands are on my shoulders, and in the moonlight he looks like something carved from stone. His eyes are black. His jaw is shaking."What did you do, Amma?"I don't have the breath for an answer. I find the strength to shove at his chest."Get off.""Amma.""Get off me." I roll, get one elbow under me, try to push to my knees. The world swings. My arm gives out, and I go do
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