Feeling Like I Will Never Find Love

Amiya who was born during an era of an old war of nations, was reborn multiple times after she met her first love. She was in a repeat cycle of living and dying not until in the present time, she meets a person whom she never saw in all her life.

Lania dan Robby sudah menjalin hubungan selama tujuh tahun lamanya. Robby mencintai Lania sepenuh hatinya, bahkan jika Lania meminta hidupnya, akan Robby berikan. Namun, tidak dengan Lania. Gadis itu sudah menodai hubungan mereka dengan perselingkuhan. Berkali-kali. Tetapi Robby tetaplah Robby, ia tidak mampu untuk meninggalkan Lania, ia selalu memaafkan kesalahan yang seharusnya tidak ia maafkan. Di saat Lania sudah berjanji akan berubah jika Robby mau menikah dengannya, dan sudah dikabulkan pula oleh Robby. Lania kembali pada egonya, berselingkuh dan menghancurkan Robby kembali. Robby lelah, Robby menyerah, dan ia memutuskan untuk mengakhiri segalanya. Tetapi Lania tidak membiarkan itu terjadi.

I’d been in love with Cassian Cross—my brother’s best friend, the one and only mafia boss in the NYC—for as long as I could remember. On the night of my twentieth birthday, my brother promised me a surprise. I didn’t expect that surprise to be a very drunk, very kissable Cassian. One reckless night. One baby boy. Cassian agreed to marry me after giving birth. But the day I gave birth to Leo, Cassian said nothing. He just packed up and vanished to France for nearly five years. Then he returned with Alessia. His first love. And when she saw Leo and me, she ran away and disappeared. After that, Cassian never left my side. Like he was trying to be the man I needed all along, that we were finally going to have our chance. But fairytales are lies wrapped in pretty paper. On Leo’s sixth birthday, we were driving to dinner. The brakes failed. The car spun onto the highway, flames licking at the engine. Cassian got out. And then he locked the door. “If it weren’t for you, Alessia would still be by my side. Now? It’s your turn to suffer.” It wasn’t until that moment I understood—Cassian had never loved me. When I opened my eyes again, I was back at my twenties birthday. Cassian was in my bed, exactly where I’d left him in the past. This time, I didn’t hesitate. I ran. And on my way out, I made the call I should’ve made the first time. To Alessia.

It is the third year of my marriage when the video of my bodyguard, Julian Sutherland, holding an umbrella over me in a downpour goes viral. Overnight, the internet becomes obsessed with the "Icy Protector and his Forbidden Heiress." Netizens are relentless; they dig through the archives until they unearth a ten-year-old clip. In the video, a girl was holding a pair of high-heeled shoes while sprinting through the Folander airport. My friend teased, "No way, Ms. Serina Brown. Are you really flying back home to confess to that poor man? What could you possibly see in him?" The camera shakes, capturing my youthful face. I was just a reckless 20-year-old. "I love Julian. I love everything about him." That night, after seeing the video, Julian loses his composure and bursts into my room. "I didn't know you loved me back then. I thought… I thought… God, it was never supposed to end like this." I pull my coat around me and stand rooted on the spot, remaining silent. Suddenly, a mocking laugh echoes from behind me. Someone places their hand firmly on my waist and says, "Are you trying to reminisce about your love with my wife right in front of me? Do I look dead to you?"

WARNING: [R-18] STORY WITH EXTREMELY EXPLICIT/MATURE CONTENT) Nang makilala ni Ara si Daniel Trinidad, ang pinakanakakainis na tao sa kaniyang mundo, she actually met the man of her dreams. Ang kaniyang knight in a shining armor na nakahanda siya protektahan anuman ang mangyari. At kahit pa sabihing mistula silang mga aso at puso, nagawa pa rin ni Daniel na gawing kulay rosas ang kaniyang paligid. And soon, thorns. Iyon ay ang sakit na hatid ng katotohanang kailangan niya itong pakawalan at tanggapin ang isang mapait na katotohanan. That their love for each other is not for them to share for life but for eternity.

THIS TIME SERIES : BOOK 1 It was then she knew a bullet pierced her heart. When she looked, it was Francis; the one who killed her was the man of her dreams. Kianna, who came back to time for some reason, decided to never give her love to anyone this time. Especially him-- but fate seems to be playing her life. Why did he suddenly give motives to Kianna? Will she ever forget him and give him what he deserves?

When Ava's father becomes critically ill with kidney failure, her world crumbles overnight. The only way to save him is a fifteen-million-dollar transplant she can never afford. Desperate and with no options, she's forced to meet with Dominic Hale, a cold and powerful billionaire who unexpectedly paid for her father's hospitalization. But in Dominic Hale's world, nothing is free. When Ava begs him for help, he makes her an offer that shatters her reality: He'll pay for the surgery that will save her father's life… if she agrees to marry him. Not for love. Not for romance. But for a contract. Caught between her father's life and her freedom, Ava is forced into a dangerous deal with a man she barely knows, only to discover that Dominic Hale is far more complex than the ruthless billionaire he appears to be. And some deals don't just save lives… They break hearts.

A premeditated scheme of exploitation stripped me of everything I had. An unforeseen encounter plunged me headlong into a swirling vortex of chaos. Betrayal, contracts, endless entanglements… As the gears of fate clicked into motion, a single sheet of agreement threw me back into the orbit of that person—yet he seemed to have erased every trace of me from his memory… Meanwhile, my ex’s relentless, suffocating pestering and life’s unyielding, brutal trials kept closing in, one after another.

At the reunion, someone asked when I was getting married. Grinning, I pulled out the invites. "Mid-October. Be there." Cheers broke out. Everyone peeked at the girl next to me. "You've been with Daphne forever, right? Finally making it official?" Daphne hurled her drink at me. "Ethan Everett, is this your idea of pressuring me into marriage?" The room froze. I wiped my face, cool as ever, and opened the invite in front of her. "Maybe check the name. It doesn't say you're the bride."

My fiance, Dante de Rossi, is the heir to a mafia family in Manhorne, and he loves me dearly. Yet, a month before our wedding, he says his family has arranged for him to have a baby with his childhood friend, Isobel de Luca. Despite my refusal to agree to it, he brings it up daily and tries to push me into it. Half a month before the wedding, I receive a pregnancy report. I find out that Isobel is over a month pregnant. I have yet to give Dante my permission. This is when I realize just how fragile our years-long relationship is. I cancel the wedding and destroy everything he has ever given me. On the day of the wedding, I set off for Etolia to further my medical career. I accept a role with an international medical organization, severing all ties with the mafia. From that moment onward, he and I no longer have anything to do with each other!