Hope Bagel

Mon copain Julien est un grand maître d'échecs, un génie. À seize ans, il est devenu le plus jeune grand maître de l'histoire de la France. Je lui ai donné dix ans de ma vie, mais il n'a jamais parlé de bague. Mais lorsqu'il a atteint le sommet de sa carrière et remporté le Grand Chelem, il refusait toujours de rompre le pacte qu'il avait conclu avec sa famille au sujet de sa carrière. « Selon mon plan, je n'envisage pas le mariage ou toute autre forme d'engagement à long terme avant d'avoir atteint tous mes objectifs. » Je n'ai pas discuté avec lui. J'ai tranquillement préparé ses bagages pour le Championnat du monde et je lui ai souhaité le meilleur. Il ne savait pas qu'au moment même où il soulevait le trophée du championnat sous les yeux du monde entier, je traînais mon corps défaillant pour signer mon propre nom sur un formulaire de consentement à l'euthanasie.

I was once the most respected female intelligence officer in the underworld. I controlled black market trade, port lockdowns, and risk assessments for every smuggling route. These were the basics every new recruit learned on their first day in the Mafia. But my intel was never reliable. As time went by, everyone caught on. In this city, whether the ports were locked down or open for business didn't depend on intel. It depended on whether Vincenzo's childhood friend was in a bad mood. I had just sent an order over the family's secure channel: "Level-one lockdown. All shipping routes are closed." A moment later, the ports were thrown wide open. My rival mocked me in front of everyone. "Isabella's supposed to be the queen of underworld intelligence, isn't she? What happened, did she lose her touch?" Other family members twisted the knife without a second thought. "Her husband changes the rules at a word from his precious Amelia. Who's going to listen to her anymore?" "She's on the hook for any losses from this. That route reopening is going to bankrupt her!" I clutched a stack of formal censures from the family. I said nothing. It didn't matter. I was done being a pawn in their games. Soon, I would be gone for good.

It took me ten years to become the right hand to Damian Costello, the Consigliere of the Costello crime family. From a nobody to the woman wearing his engagement ring. But two weeks before the wedding, I decided to throw that ring away. Everyone in the family knew how hard I had fought all these years just to stand by Damian's side. I gave up the chance to become a top trader on Wall Street, willingly becoming Damian's assistant, his shadow. This man was infamous for his coldness and exacting nature, keeping everyone at arm's length. So I hid my sharp edges, spending a decade wearing down his icy exterior with gentleness. I cleansed the blood from every dollar he made. I became a necessity to him, as essential as the air he breathed. I thought that after ten years, I had finally made my presence indispensable. And finally earned what looked, to outsiders, like a glimmer of his affection. The family's notoriously aloof genius actually remembered my birthday. He even made an exception, letting me spend the night in his private study when I was unwell. He didn't even push me away when, emboldened by wine, I pressed a kiss to the side of his neck. If the Don's daughter, Isabella, hadn't returned from Italy, I might have kept playing my part, clinging to that false dream forever. But sadly, there are no ‘ifs’. I am going to give up everything here and leave you.

At 4:00 a.m., my husband, Rocco, gently shook me awake. His voice was a low murmur, . "Alessia, my love, could you do something for me?" But his next words shattered the illusion. "Scarlett is hungry. Go make her some seafood soup." Scarlett was our maid, and she was also Rocco's pregnant goomar. "I just had fresh seafood delivered. Get to the kitchen and make her a bowl of soup. Just for Falcone's heir." I refused, my voice cold. His anger flared in an instant. "Don't be so unreasonable, Alessia." "Is it really so hard for you to make some soup?" I shook my head, silent. He stroked my cheek, a patronizing smile playing on his lips. "Fine, Alessia. So you've learned to defy me now." "Think carefully, Alessia. Do you really want to keep your place as a Falcone?" "And your position as the family's lawyer? Think about whether you still want these… then give me your answer." Seeing the arrogance in Rocco's eyes, the last ember of love I had for this man died. I took out my phone and dialed a number I hadn't called in a long time. "I want out of the Falcone family."

On the night of our anniversary, I had prepared a new set of lingerie for my Mafia husband Joey, but he had prepared divorce papers for me instead. A Cuban cigar was clamped between his teeth, a look of pure entitlement on his face. "Adriana, we need to divorce. Vivian's father is a capo. If I marry her, my future's set." "Look, sweetheart, you're just a broken family's leftover daughter. You should be grateful I kept you around this long." "Once I have the family ring, maybe I'll throw you a few scraps, let you be my little side piece." Everyone expected the daughter of a fallen family to step aside for his ambition, to be the loyal dog I'd been for the past seven years. But that night, I made a deal with the devil. I accepted a match arranged by my family and married the true king of New York's underworld. I vanished from Joey's world completely. Three years later, I returned to New York on my husband's arm. We were there on family business. Dante was called away for something urgent, leaving me to wait for him at his private club. I never expected to run into Joey, the man I hadn't seen in three years. "That's enough, Adriana. Stop with the childish tantrums." "Our son Angelo's almost six. He needs care. I'm being generous, offering you a position as his nanny." I laughed. What was this idiot talking about? He was calling the most feared and revered Donna in all of New York a nanny?

The 99th time my fiancé, Draven, hung up on me, I dragged myself to the family's church, my diagnosis of end-stage renal disease clutched in my hand. "Father, I wish to renounce the Rocci family and break off my engagement to Draven Frost." The words had barely left my lips when my parents burst in with my adopted sister, Bianca. My father, the family's Consigliere, didn't hesitate. He slapped me across the face, right there in front of the priest. "Your fiancé is a respected Capo in our world, and you choose to insult him like this!" "You're dragging our family's name through the mud in front of the whole organization!" My mother snatched the diagnosis from my hand, sneering after a brief glance. "Playing sick for attention again, are you? What is it you want this time?" My adopted sister, Bianca, clung to our parents' arms, her voice choked with tears. "I'm so sorry, sister. You can have my place at the gala. Please, just stop making trouble for Mom and Dad!" I wiped the blood trickling from my nose and calmly repeated my words to the priest. "I am no longer a daughter of the Rocci family. I am not worthy of an alliance with the Frosts." "I will be dead in three days. I want this engagement broken before then."

Una vez que quedé embarazada, fui aclamada como la mujer más preciosa del submundo. Mi esposo, el nuevo Don de la familia Jenkins, cerró toda una ala de un hospital privado para mis chequeos, mientras que mi padre, el Don de los Collins, convocó a todos los chefs con estrellas Michelin de Nueva York a la mansión, solo para que yo pudiera elegir cualquier cosa que se me antojara. El bebé que llevaba en mi vientre estaba destinado a ser el único heredero de las dos familias de la mafia más poderosas. Pero el día en que debíamos firmar los documentos que aseguraban la herencia de mi hijo, ambos desaparecieron. —Surgió un asunto familiar urgente —dijo mi esposo, Vincent, besando mi frente—. Podemos finalizar la herencia del niño cuando regresemos. No hay prisa. Poco después de que se marcharan, recibí un enlace a una transmisión en vivo anónima. La voz de mi padre se escuchaba en el video, más fría de lo que jamás la había sentido. —Estás diciendo que tu contrato de matrimonio con Evangeline nunca fue válido. ¿Eso no convierte al niño en un bastardo? Vincent, relajado en un club, sopló un anillo de humo. Acurrucada en sus brazos estaba mi media hermana, Sarah. —Evangeline siempre ha tenido todo el amor y el afecto. A su hijo no le faltará nada —respondió Vincent—. Sarah ha sido burlada por su estatus durante años. Tengo que hacer las cosas bien para ella, darle a nuestro hijo un nombre legítimo. En ese momento, mi corazón se paralizó y apenas podía respirar. Entonces mi teléfono vibró de nuevo. Era un mensaje de texto: [Bienvenida a casa a la familia Gallo, mi reina.] [Solo di la palabra, y el niño que llevas llevará el apellido Gallo y se convertirá en el heredero más poderoso del submundo estadounidense.]

Als mein Verlobter Draven mich zum 99. Mal einfach auflegte, schleppte ich mich zur Familienkirche. Die Diagnose eines terminalen Nierenversagens hielt ich gekrampft in der Hand. „Vater, ich möchte mich von der Familie Rocci lossagen und meine Verlobung mit Draven Frost beenden.“ Kaum hatte ich die Worte ausgesprochen, stürmten meine Eltern mit meiner Adoptivschwester Bianca herein. Mein Vater, der Consigliere der Familie, zögerte keine Sekunde. Vor den Augen des Priesters schlug er mir ins Gesicht. „Dein Verlobter ist ein respektierter Capo in unserer Welt – und du wagst es, ihn so zu beleidigen? Du ziehst den Namen unserer Familie vor der ganzen Organisation in den Dreck!“ Meine Mutter riss mir die Diagnose aus der Hand, überflog sie und verzog verächtlich das Gesicht. „Stellst du dich schon wieder krank, nur um Aufmerksamkeit zu erhaschen? Was willst du nun?“ Meine Adoptivschwester Bianca klammerte sich an die Arme unserer Eltern, ihre Stimme von Tränen erstickt. „Es tut mir so leid, Schwester. Nimm du meinen Platz auf der Gala. Bitte, bereite Mama und Papa einfach keinen weiteren Ärger!“ Ich wischte das Blut ab, das aus meiner Nase tropfte, und wiederholte ruhig meine Worte an den Priester. „Ich bin nicht länger eine Tochter der Familie Rocci. Ich bin einer Allianz mit den Frosts nicht würdig.“ „In drei Tagen liege ich im Grab. Bis dahin will ich diese Verlobung aufgelöst haben.“

At two in the morning, when the pack elders' urgent summons came, I had just crawled out from beneath my childhood sweetheart, the Alpha heir Slade. My body was still aching from his rough possession. As the only human healer in the entire Blackwood Pack, I was ordered to prepare herbs as a gift for Slade's marriage alliance with the Thorne Pack. I gently lifted Slade's arm from where it was wrapped around me. After a night of passion, his powerful Alpha body was still radiating a feverish heat. I assumed this was just another wolf princess he needed to turn away, so I poked his chest playfully and asked with a smile, "Slade, what excuse are you going to use the 99th time? That you've suddenly developed an allergy to the princess?" He rolled over and kissed my forehead, his eyes heavy with sleep. "My sweet girl, this time the herbs must be prepared by you, and you alone. The success of this alliance rests on your shoulders." I froze. For the past ten years, I had been his secret solace, the one who soothed his violent rages every night. I thought I would earn a formal bonding ceremony, sooner or later. But in that moment, I understood. I was just a convenience, a body for him to use. If that was all I was to him, then I would burn everything we had to the ground. I made a call to my old mentor at the National Institute of Medicine, Professor Sterling. "Professor, that research position regarding gene... is it still open? I'm ready to return to the human world." But when that arrogant Alpha, who claimed we were 'just friends' and 'strictly professional,' discovered he could no longer catch even a faint scent of me in the air, he completely lost his mind.

This is the ninth year Dante and I have honored the Month of No Masters. The Corinni family's heir apparent believes this will make our relationship last longer. For one month after our dating anniversary each year, he is free, and we stay out of each other's lives. If either of us finds someone more suitable, we are to wish them well. If not, we go back to the way things were after a month. Around me, the men of the family are spraying champagne with abandon. "To another year of freedom! Congratulations to our Underboss on reclaiming his bachelor status!" "The family betting pool is open! Place your bets on the left if you think they'll still get married, and on the right if you think it's over for good!" Through the hazy cigar smoke, I sat on the corner of a leather sofa, a cold observer, as if this whole farce had nothing to do with me. Dante's hand was curled around Scarlett's waist as he brushed past me, whispering, "Don't get any ideas. You'll always be my only Donna." "I'm a kite. No matter how far I fly, the string is always in your hand." I pressed my cold fingers against the gentle swell of my belly, my expression a blank mask. Dante, this time at the family's betting table, I'm putting my money on "the end." I'm going to vanish from your world completely. That kite string you're so proud of? Tonight, I'm cutting it myself.