Novel & Cerita I Never Meant To Hurt You

“Sylvia…” “You know I still deal with the trauma,” I said. “You don’t get to say ‘let’s forget the past’ when you weren’t the one breaking.” He stepped closer. “I never meant to hurt you.” “I know,” I whispered. “That’s the problem.” He looked confused. “You hurt me without meaning to,” I said. “And that makes it worse.” Silence stretched between us. I could feel my heart racing, my throat tightening. I needed to say it. I needed to say the thing that would make him stop fighting.

"Explain that you were so determined to own me that you didn't care about the truth? Explain that you saw me as nothing more than a prize to be won?" "That's not….." "Was it?" She stepped closer, her eyes boring into mine. "Was I just a trophy to you? Something to acquire, to possess, to show off?" I opened my mouth to deny it but the words wouldn't come, because some part of me I hated fucking knew she was right. "I never meant to hurt you," I said quietly. "Intent doesn't matter when the damage is already done." She shook her head. "I need……" She stopped, her voice breaking. "I need you to leave me alone."

I was afraid you'd be hurt because of me, so I compromised. "I admit, I'm useless. I couldn't protect you, and I hurt you instead. I never wanted to, but I'm the one who has hurt you the most. It's useless for me to say more. I'm not excusing myself. I dare not ask for your forgiveness. "I just want to tell you that I love you forever. You must live well and be happy. As long as you're well, I'll be well. Promise me. You must live happily and well."

I didn't mean to do it. The words repeat inside my head, over and over, but they don't mean anything anymore. I didn't mean to burn them. I didn't mean to lock Caidy in the dark. I didn't mean to break her. I keep telling myself that, but the more I repeat it, the more pathetic it sounds. It's the same excuse I've used before, and now I can't even stand to hear it in my own head. What good is I didn't mean to when someone is already hurt? What good is it when the damage is already done and I can't take any of it back?

I understood that this wasn’t something I could force. So I turned and walked toward the door, stopping just for a second before opening it. “I meant what I said,” I said without looking back. “I would never hurt you.” Then I stepped out closing he door quietly behind me. And the moment I did… My expression

“ I do. As long as you stay, nothing else matters. I won’t hurt you or anyone you know. ” Too bad. I can’t promise the same. I will definitely hurt you and everyone you know.

What were we even doing? “You're going to hurt me again, I know it. When you're done with me, just tell me. Don't hurt my feelings like that because I'm pretty old.” “You're just perfect and no, I'll never be done with you.”

The words struck me harder than the tea. Learn your place. How many times had I heard those words? From Elena. From Amelia. From everyone who believed I was nothing more than a burden. And now, even here? I felt something break inside me. I had thought leaving my father’s house meant escaping that kind of treatment. Apparently, I had only moved from one nightmare into another. I wiped my tears, wincing when my fingers touched my burning cheek. “Grandma,” I whispered, “I don’t know what I’ve done to offend you.” She looked away. “But I’m sorry if I did something wrong.”

“I never meant to hurt you in all this.” I looked up at him. “Well, you did,” I told him. “I really just need some time to figure out how I feel, okay?” With that, Trevor left.

I don't know how and when things got this bad but I wanted to try as much as he wanted to try and that was enough. "You know the rain can only work with hiding tears when you're in it, not when you're out of the rain and your eyes always give you away. I always tell you that and if I've hurt you in any way I am so sorry it wasn't my intention I didn't mean to."