My Guilt Will Not Purify Me

He presses her hard to the wall, but make sure to secure the little girl head, his hands at his ex-wife waist tightened as his trembling lips opened, his voice quivered as he said something near her ears. "I wont be a bad guy anymore Xiara, dont leave me again, okay?" he repeated it over and over again like chanting a spell, but the pit at his stomach only continued to grow. His eyes flash a bit of crazy obsessiveness and paranoia as the hand that hold Xiara head a while ago gently stroke her head with great restraints. Tilting her head, Xiara blinked, "Who are you?"

Mia Anderson was known for her nonstop drinking addiction. With a strong will to make a life-changing diction that gave her the determination to be a successful businesswoman. With only small part-time jobs, Mia was able to earn a little money. With her mindset on a more Exclusive job, Mia signed up for an accounting position But unfortunately, with her terrifying background, which meant she has been rejected that opportunity evolved with her going back to her old habits that later turned into a terrifying experience she never thought would happen.

I've been overlooked by the Lawson family a hundred times over. On birthdays, they only ever get a cake for my sister, Jocelyn Lawson. When I'm sick, I lie alone in a hospital bed while they fuss around her. I tell myself to tough it out and be a good daughter, but no amount of my endurance ever earns me a drop of their favor. On my wedding day, I think I'll finally get my moment to shine, at least for once. But I'm wrong. My parents, my brother, and even my fiance—Felix Wright, the head of a mafia empire—abandon me to attend Jocelyn's graduation ceremony. They leave me standing alone at the altar, enduring the guests' whispers and pitying glances. But Felix just throws me a cold line. "It's just a wedding. We'll make it up another day." It's not the first time. At our engagement party, Jocelyn whimpers about a stomachache, and he rushes her to the hospital without a flicker of hesitation. I'm left to smile through gritted teeth, making excuses to a room full of guests. That's the moment it hits me. To them, I'll always be the spare. So, I walk away. I pack my bags and carry a secret with me—the child growing inside me. This time, I'm done waiting for their scraps of affection. I'm starting a new chapter in my life, for me and my baby.

My husband, Jaxon Murray, was a renowned medical expert and owned a big company. He was participating in a clinical drug trial when someone tampered with his medication. Under the influence, he ended up entangled with an intern—ninety-nine times, right there on the lab table. When he regained clarity, he rushed home, locked himself in the bathroom, and submerged himself in the tub without food or water as he waited for me to return from work. "Lauren," he said, "my medication was switched during the trial. I made a terrible mistake. But I paid her off and had her dismissed. She'll never appear before me again." I wept miserably, clutching my belly that had once again failed to carry life. And in the end, I chose to forgive him. Several months later, he crashed into a guardrail while answering a phone call, causing me to miscarry. The injury left me unable to conceive for life. He buried his face in the crook of my neck, his voice choked with remorse. "Darling, I don't deserve you. I'm so sorry… We don't need children. We have each other, isn't that enough?" One day, I went to bring him lunch, only to find him in the next hospital room, cradling and feeding the woman he swore he'd never see again. "She's too weak to eat by herself," he said. "She has early-stage stomach cancer. There's no one else to take care of her… she's all alone." I chose to believe him. Again. Until one day, a pair of twins appeared in our home. Sophie Dixon knelt before me, wearing the postpartum gown he had once lovingly picked out for me, clutching my hand with tears streaming down her face. "It's all my fault. Please don't blame Jaxon. If you say the word, I'll leave with the children immediately." Jaxon grabbed my other hand, desperation thick in his voice. "Lauren, you've always been the kindest person I know. The children are still so young. How could Sophie possibly raise them alone? You wouldn't be that cruel… would you?" I looked down at the hands gripping mine from both sides, and suddenly, I laughed. "Jaxon, let's get a divorce. I wish you both a lifetime of happiness."

I was finally pregnant with his child after being married to Grady Winters for five years. I planned to share the wonderful news with him in person, but on that fateful day, I encountered his first love, who had just returned from abroad. She scalded me with soup, spilling it across me before shoving me down the stairs. Curled up and fighting through the piercing pain in my abdomen, I heard her cold, mocking laughter from above. "Who do you think you are to be Mrs. Winters? I've seen plenty of women who are social climbers." Then, she turned to Grady, her voice laced with pride. She playfully pouted, asking, "Didn't I do a good job, Grady? Don't you think you should reward me as well?"

Oakley is a quiet kid, he keeps his head down and minds his own business. He has a best friend, and a fling. He's openly gay, and in his small town that still lives in the sixties, he gets bullied for it. He has two moms, which only adds to the bullying. Axton is at his prime, he plays football, has a hot girlfriend, who is supposedly his soon to be mate. Everything in his life is perfect. Except he has one big secret. No one knows, and he takes out his frustrations on an easy target.

"I want you to be mine." Davon purrs into my ear while his hand snakes up to my neck. "I want to be yours, too..." "Good. Then I shall fuck you till you forget your own name, little flower." His hand tightens against my throat.

Being a smart and beautiful woman is certainly the dream of all women, but not all women can face life properly. Losing their first love at the age of 16 is not easy for Aiys. It takes time to get over it. "Is it natural to bet with love in your mind?" Aiys asked silently. When Aiys still believes in the miracle of a promise, a new man comes to fill the emptiness of the heart and transforms into a hero in Aiys' life. But again, before the old wound healed, he had a new wound. The transfer of the duties of the Aiys parents to a village is a harsh reality that must be swallowed up. "Am I not destined to be loved and to love?" "The only encouragement for my life right now is myself," said Aiys softly. Arriving at the Aiys village, he was surprised by Farhan's presence in his life. Cool man, smart, and dream of the whole school. Meeting with Farhan opens Aiys eyes, the life in the village that he doesn't want turns into the most memorable story in Aiys life. Every day Farhan is able to make Aiys fall in love with him. Coupled with the birth of a community that they built together, "Sun Earth" The ups and downs of building their community naturally. Are they able to achieve their goals? And no one knows, that Aisy was Farhan first love at first sight. Enable Farhan to fill the emptiness of Aiys heart or even return to open old wounds for Aiys.

Arabella was always under her brother's protection until she got so fed up. Because of the enormous stress she is under, Arabella now finds herself at her sister's best friend's house. Until she innocently experiences many things that commit sin. But does Arabella like it? Does the pleasure of sin make her free from her shackles all this time?

My husband had lost interest in me for many years. My son's classmate taught me how to flirt with my husband. However, when he was doing so, he placed a hand on my butt and said, "Open up, Mrs. Jackson!"