Romans & histoires The Departed Comfortably Numb

I can lightly feel the sparks right now since we are so close, but again it’s not affecting me like it should, my emotions are completely shut down. "Please react" he whispers out Nothing. “Please, show me something.” Putting his forehead on mine, breathing the same air between us, but still I have nothing, I can’t feel anything and I don’t want this feeling to go away. "What have you done Athena?” he pulls me even closer if thats even possible And this time I do answer him. "I'm fine. I’m okay. I’m just numb.” I smile and close my eyes slowly and whisper out “ It feels good not to feel anything.”

“I’m not trying to hurt you, but I can’t be with you anymore. You’re in a bad place and I see no future for us. I’m leaving. Please don’t try to find me. I love you forever, Hazel. Edwin.” I turn it around and upside down, but that’s just it. Nothing more, nothing less. I feel… sick. “Are you alright, Miss?” She asks cautiously. I nod slowly. I realize that I’ve been staring vaguely at nothing for about a minute, but only because I’ve been waiting for the pain to set in. It annoys me how numb I feel. It makes me mad that it’s taking my brain so long to process it. Yet, I know what I should be feeling. Anger, despair, humiliation.

"Carmen is coming in with her doctor. You stay here with Val. I am going--" But her words were lost to the void, swallowed up by the abyss of my own despair. I felt myself slipping further into the depths of darkness, the tendrils of oblivion wrapping themselves around me like a lover's embrace. I welcomed the numbness that enveloped me, the sweet release of surrender as I succumbed to the silence that beckoned me home. ___________________________________________

"Because sometimes...I see how far away you are. And how closed off you can be. I know you're not very emotional by nature. But you have to let things out sometimes." He swallowed. "I know. I don't like it though." "You don't have to. You just have to. Being numb is just a state of overwhelming feeling. So much that your senses can't process it. But you're feeling, Hades. Just let out a little. So that you can feel what you need to." "And why are you so wise?" He grumbled. "Because I raised thinking numb was good. Numb meant everything was okay. Feeling was too wild. Numb was good. And I loved that way. Observing my own life, like an outsider. And one day...I just wanted to feel."

I'm going to need another bottle if I'm dealing with this shit. "Do you not feel the bond then?" He asked turning to look at me. "No I feel numb. She's dead. I'm next." I muttered at the end. The door chimed again.FuckI feel numb. She's dead. I'm next." I muttered at the end. The door chimed again.Fuck there's that smell. I breathed it in just praying that it doesn't go away that I can still pretend she's there for just a moment. "Dom." Came barely a whisper from behind me.

His harsh voice rang through my ears like alarm bells and I saw black dots in front of my eyes from all the exhaustion, my eyes rolled to the back of my head, and then I felt myself fall into a comfortable numbness. ****

And it hurt that there was no see you later, or see you soon or i'll call you. There was none because now she was gone, forever. "May the Lord bless her and keep her and shine forth on her and be gracious to her..." "We ask oh lord that you lift up our dearly departed Ruby Kaleo Smith and give her peace..." Ruby was the best. And in was in that, we buried our fears and found our comfort. To be continued... 

I could barely feel my own limbs anymore; everything was numb, cold, distant. As I teetered on the edge of consciousness, the thought slipped from my lips in a faint, trembling whisper, barely louder than the rain. Let this be it… let me finally find peace.” The world grew darker, like a thick veil had fallen over me. The pain in my body dulled, fading into a strange kind of comfort, as if I were drifting away from everything I’d ever known. I was ready to let go, to welcome the oblivion that was slowly pulling me under.

With this, I no longer owe Remy anything. I closed my eyes, feeling myself slowly leaving this body as my consciousness began to fade.

The flight went by like a blur, the lights in the cabin seemed softer under the effect of the anxiolytic she had taken. The sadness persisted, but now it was shrouded in a veil of numbness, an attempt to temporarily escape the heavy reality that awaited her. At their final destination, Darren guided Kath through the corridors of the airport, helping her to keep her composure in the face of the curious stares and the hustle and bustle around her. Each step felt like a double goodbye, as she left not only her old life behind, but also the promise of love that remained in Philadelphia. In the safe haven they had prepared, the tension began to subside, replaced by relative calm. Still, Kath's ey