Novel & Cerita Tired Of Living In Fiction

It's still there, and it feels like it wasn't healing afterall. Hopefully the person who will make me happy will come sooner. I'm tired. Tired of myself, tired of the world, tired of everything. And I'm also tired of...living. If that person didn't come at the right time, I might.... break down and give-up. ***

My body is aching even my mind is lethargic because of all day water activities that we did but what's making me more tired is the heavy feeling inside me. Because I know that after this day, the wall between the lies and reality is going to be weak and thinner and I'm not going to be surprised if one of these days, the woman of lies will pull out the mask to welcome the cruel judicature of the people who don't understand the reasons behind the lies.

''With that i start tearing up. 'I cant go on'I say to my self, giving up my life that instant.I wished God would just end my life right there. I mean, what was the point of living in this big, bad and wicked world, everyone lies and gets away with it, everyone hurting one another.The wickedness has no end, it never will. It would be much better if i had never been put into it. What difference would it have made.

“What? I just want to know.” “You need to stop fantasizing about fictional men, Gia. They’re not even real, and if they were, you certainly in hell wouldn’t want one like the types you read about in your life.” “You need to stop breathing air; I mean, it’s not even real, and we’d die anyway. Yours can just be some years earlier, I’ll join you when I’m old.”

Key I'm tired, really, today my whole body feels crushed. My mind is a mess, and I really want to rest in peace on my bed. Have a sweet dream and wake up feeling refreshed in the morning. I know, I can be said to be quite spoiled. But believe me, I'm getting tired of what we've been going through these past few months. I've always wanted a life like in the Disney movies , to be a princess to be exact. I'm sure they will never get tired of their fun life. I'm tired of the people who rule us, I'm tired of the problems in my life. I just want to sleep, at least I can close my eyes without having to think otherwise. For example have to think about the state of the mother, revenge and all.

I had no family and I had grown distant from the only people I considered my friends all because I thought I had it all and nothing could go wrong. More tears escaped my eyes after Ridley walked out of the room and I heard the door close. I learnt the hard way that nothing was ever fully secure, I had thought I was living a life possible only in fairytales but I realised why fairytales were exactly that, tales of fiction. I do not know how much time I spent on that balcony but I remember picking my shattered self and heading to the inside, seeking the warmth and comfortability of the bed after suffering through the harsh night weather.

But a reflection of reality and the human experience It's not just a story, and it's not just fiction..... But a piece of my heart and soul. Yours Sincerely, Author Desire.

Elara I chose the Midnight Library more than my work life. My real life was disappearing fast. I was showing up to work exhausted, dark circles under my eyes, making up weak excuses about family emergencies and insomnia. Few people had texted me asking where I had been all day long. I ignored most of them. All I could think about was Lucian. I need to let go of this addiction, if not, cause I’m cooked! My mindset kept replaying his hands, his voice, the way he made me feel completely alive for each night.

If only fictional people existed in real life :( \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \ \

🖱️Jayden🖱️ God, I am so tired of this day. If my life was a book, I swear the author would drag this single day into fifteen chapters minimum. Cliffhanger after cliffhanger. Plot twist every five pages. Emotional damage sprinkled in for flavor. Zero rest. Zero peace. Just vibes and chaos.