Novel & Cerita Ugly Love

"Raise your hands love..." I raised my middle finger before raising my hand for him to put soap onto my armpits. I heard him laughed amusingly before continuing what he was doing. "Black." I said, trying to gain his attention. He glanced at me for awhile. "Yes love?" I turned my eyes. "I hate you. You're the most ugly man I ever saw in my entire life. You're crazy and a fucking pig." I was feeling guilty after saying it but I couldn't control my mouth. It just spoke on it's own accord. The hell?

I am Aurelia Giliam, I am hated by my family and I crave to feel any type of love. I am stuck in an endless cycle of trying to get the love of people who I know will never give me it. I am bitter, I am angry. I hate this.

❞ ‹ ——— ✧ 𖥸 ✧ ——— › ╔═════════ • ≻ ♜ ≺ • ═════════╗ ꒰ 𝔐𝔸𝕋𝔼 𝕋𝕆 𝕋ℍ𝔼 𝔻ℝ𝔸𝔾𝕆ℕ ℙℝ𝕀ℕℂ𝔼 ₊˚⋆ ( TRIGGER WARNINGS ) ╚═════════ • ≻ ♜ ≺ • ═════════╝ ☽ —— 「 Our love is untouchable 」

"And I don't want your 'Forgiveness'!" He drove the needle into his own chest, but he didn't draw blood. He drew "Ugliness." He flooded the theater with the raw, visceral feeling of his own original, unadulterated "Arrogance."

"Mr. Sullivan, you actually said something that made sense back then. "You mentioned that your family is full of twisted monsters, remember? Well, I took that to heart. To avoid bringing another freak like you into the world…" With a bright smile, I added, "I had an abortion." Blake's face twisted in anger. Without saying a word, he grabbed me and threw me out of the car. The look of sheer disbelief on his face almost made me laugh. Even after everything, he still tried to play the role of a grieving father. Maybe on some level, he realized just how real my love for him once was. But his twisted nature always led him to behave in the opposite way.

For a person, mental pain is worse than physical pain, which he used to struggle with every night. It is very painful to have a person who hates you and to keep on living with his hatred. More painful than letting the person go. And my father also thought better to bear her hatred than to leave her. If he had left her, then perhaps he would have thought of being happy with someone else, but he invited his own ruin by keeping my mother and letting her hate grow. Can you be happy without taking anything by giving unconditional love to someone who doesn’t love you? Never, because the human heart is greedy. So hungry for love that it does not hold back from shedding blood to get love.

"If she is dead, then I won't ever marry another woman again for the rest of my life! What am I telling you? How can I curse my wife to die? You're the person who should be dead!" Marcus was truly exasperated. "Not only does a woman like you deserve to be dead, but you're even ugly beyond measure! You speak of my wife becoming ugly, but no matter how ugly my wife gets, she won't be as ugly as you. You're so extremely ugly! Don't you ever look into a mirror? Ugly woman! It's really true that ugly people would create more trouble! Fuck off!"

A feeling that tore me apart, broke me into pieces, and made sure there was not any single remains left A feeling that no fucking amount of shitty "Sorry" could ever heal, a feeling worst than any kind of pain, you name it: Gunshot, stabbing...This feeling like a wolf was the "Ultima", and it was this same poisonous feeling that got mixed into my blood, and turned the remaining part of me into a living dead, a demon, anything that was bad and wrong, you name it, and made emotions become nothing to me The demons in me made love become something so far away, something that couldn't be found in my dictionary, something so unreal that the word "Love" looks like nothing but a lie...well it was, t

I was ugly then too, but I never received that kind of love and concern from other people, just like Dylan and Keiji did to him. That is why in those moments I became even more angry with him. Especially when I found out that he also liked Dylan and the most painful thing was when Dylan admitted to him that he also had a look at that ugly thing. After I found out about the two of them I thought of torturing him and beating him up. It is not appropriate for an ugly person like him to receive love from the perfect man like Dylan. In fact, he was more greedy than me, because he had almost claimed everything, including Keiji.

Every single person created by God has that one person that is meant to love him or her. Ugliness is not a crime, it is not a disease and it is not a sin. Miranda found beauty but that doesn't mean that she can find love, she only found love because Alex is meant to love her whether she is beautiful or ugly. And if you are beautiful and always look down on the ugly ones, you might end up like Kiara..... One thing you should know in this world is that beauty fades but love never fades. You should also know that everyone is beautiful, no one is ugly. You should not let anyone make you believe that you are ugly because you are not ugly. You are beautiful beyond words.