BEAUTIFULLY UNFAITHFULLY
My breath was coming in short, ragged gasps.
I pulled out my phone, my fingers flying across the screen with a practiced, shameful familiarity.
I opened a hidden browser tab, searching for something raw, something heavy with explicit, overwhelming desire, scenes of women being held tightly, consumed, and devoured by men who couldn't keep their hands off them.
The audio filled the quiet guest room. The heavy breathing, the friction of skin against skin, the low moans of a woman being thoroughly wanted.
Closing my eyes, I arched my back against the mattress and slid my hand down past the waistband of my underwear. My fingers were shaking, but as soon as I touched myself, a soft, pathetic sob e